PLAYING AROUND OUR IMAGINATION

For a While we may appear to defy gravity by juggling our secret inner imagination and thoughts with our external world of studied conformity to accept norms in fact some of us should get an Oscar for our acting abilty…

Most from some people think , I’m a dreaming woman, even some woman who I know was judge me as call me, “Suka Menghayal!”

well remember,” Jika kamu bisa memimpikan nya, kamu bisa mendapat kan nya!”

Yes, I have a dreams and it’s difficult to keep life simple if I have multiple passion and desire

When I’m busy with my art,drawing, painting or anything to do with my art imaginative, all I need just music in my head and sit relax on my chair!
and everything just about me and my art and I will swim deep in my own world, as my mind fly around just about my art and my imagination.
Everything just seem quite for me, sometimes even deadly quite around me, even my bald eyes, seem lazy to move around to see the right or left side.

Not because I do not care with people around me, or was busy thing around me, and YES! seem I just don’t care!
who was walk past from the left or right or even to some people who was stand up near my table, if I was in cafe.

Some people have a difference way , yes every one difference! and I have my own way difference, my mind, my body, my soul,even my feeling they have own way to soar and progress my imagination as take me and drag me to my own world, again where it’s just about me and my art!

Do you think that creative people are usually more imaginative?

I think it depends more on the person actually.
One of my sister is creative but she doesn’t exactly have an imagination
My dad isn’t creative but he has an enough active imagination.
I’m creative and I have an over-active imagination.
It depends on the individual.

Before I was kid I was wondering my self :

“Where was I have been?”

“Where is that place?”

and I spoke my self…

“what happen, if I cant come back again?”
“is there….there is a door? so I can come back?”

Well, I m not a daddy girl, but yes, he is like my best friend, I like to talk to him, and I prefer talk with some one who is from my own family, if something I do not understand or something was doubt me…my father not an artist painter,but he had good taste for art and understand about the art things, he loved to give comments and options, but what ever he give me comment and his options,he always knew, the actions it’s always in my own thought and it’s always my choice

YES!!! most all the time…. the choose is mine.

But for some reason , I do too a very few time thought about his options and follow.

and I’m always remember what he say….

I saw you and tell you there is light over there…
I teach you and guide you how to go walk over there
there is left way…
there is right way…
and there is straight way…
I will teach you my away in beginning how to go to the light
but, I m not can carry you…
you have to try go walk by your self with your feet and step
even you have to grope in the dark as you walk
then when you walk, you have own your thought and choice too
which one is the best? did you still stick with my step and my follow? until you go to the light? or you have your own choice as better way then mine, to go there more fast and safe to the light!

I don’t know, sometimes I feel, I’m right and satisfied but sometimes also I felt fail with my own choose, but I never feel regret and not blame any one and I do too trying hard too not blame my self.

According from him: every human being we all got blessing from god as he give us a talented, but every each people is difference talented and difference how they explore out and how they do with they own abilty,
some people good on other side,some other people good on the other difference side
how they good or bad, how those big or small they ability is also It depends on the individual and back to they own self again.

Jika kamu tahu cara menggalinya
dan jika kamu menggali nya dengan serius
kamu akan mengangkat bakat yang terpendam keluar…
semua itu sudah ada di dalam diri kita masing masing, dan kembali lagi kepada diri kita sendiri, bagaimana cara kita mengunakan nya dan menggali nya.

Yes, as My self, I thanks full to God…
I know how to explore out my talented
I know how to explore out my imagination
and I know how to drag my self and mind to feel it my imaginations
so I can sense and feel like, I was go deep to my own world imagination.

he said :

“That because you was enjoying what you do and you enjoying your drawing and you respect full your imagination, so you can feel and sense it’s almost like real that you can be buried your self in your own world art and imagination

and he remain me again, for some people who is not trust they self and to they own feeling and sense, most they just think as weird with they own imagination, even some will felt scared think as worry other people will think Crazy and for people who is never respect with they own talented or they imagination most people who is never felt satisfaction with they own gift and with what they do, never felt satisfy with they own attainment.

“What happen,If I was to deep with my mind and my imagination and buried my self there and never come back?”
and there is ….no door there…?

my father was just giving me a big smile and I can remember that, he was just like a little laugh like I was made funny with my questions.

” As your art imaginative and painting ,The one who can control your mind and your imagination, it’s you… Your self!

he say:
When we imagination something, that also we try creative something in our mind and fantasy…
and your drawing your imaginative it’s like a movie, and think like as a movie
you creative that’s imaginative and imagination as you are the sutradara…
you creative that story as you put scenario on your mind as what will be like your fantasy and those imaginative as your wish…
and sometimes, you also can be the actor for your imagination your imaginative art or drawing fantasy.

Everything on your hands and your mind
when you think is enough , you will stop
and you don’t need a door
the key in your hands
you can make bad as you want that imagination as you wish…
you can buried your self deep in there…
you can make it good or
even you can ruin bad that your imagination
it’s yours… you the one who control that!

You can buried your self as you wish as long you want
and for some people who never come back again
that because…
they living in they own fantasy, those people who is cant accept and cant make a discriminate between real life and fantasy.

Any way, after that conversation with my father was make me feel better and I never doubt and worry any more, I was keep drawing and enjoying ever momment my own world when I was drawing…writing even when do with my art pics.

What do you think our world would be like without creative people in it, your opinions and thoughts?

I wouldn’t exactly be having this write and conversation about my art without the creativity of Mr. Gates.
But we need a balance in life – some creative some not. That’s the way I see it.

Np: All Those, it’s my art, from my hard work, and DISCIPLINE and FAITH. maybe for some people think is crazy or nothing, but for me, it’s everything and I’m satisfied at least I have been try to make it happen from one of my other dream art.
and I would like to say thank you for all the website I have been joint to all my friends who has in my friends list and any where, who support me.
Thank You

FAITH FOR THE FREEDOM OF ART

Sometimes I need to ask my self ,
whether…

I M WILLING TO PAY THE PRICE OF DISCIPLINE TO ACHIEVE A FREEDOM of my thought for my art
the tool exacted upon me for the lack of discipline will, in the long run for exceed
the price I now pay for freedom through discipline
Through from the pain
Through from my faith…

Now here, I’m with my art imaginative :

Those ~ who was in my head
those ~ who was my imaginative
those ~ the picture who I was creative by my imaginations, as an artist and my talented,

by feel, by sense, by testing, by character, by emotions, and more…more
by the eyes through my head, when you cant see directly from my head
by ears with thousand and billions voice….when you cant listen.

Where the place? and where those place…it’s just a place….no dark, not bright either, not smell , not bad either, not hot not cold either, it’s just a place….

I tell you a little bit about me :

I’m NOT to religious person and as human I do not perfect either,
You can see me sometimes, I’m still like wearing my favorite short skirt,
I’m still like sometimes, even often teasing a guys with my naughty joke on my write
(Well that’s my bad habbit, sorry….)

I NEVER see heaven before, and I NEVER see hell either, and I DO NOT KNOW what is look like those place either!

But I do believe with God, and I believe with Heaven and Hell

And in my life I NEVER SEE or MEET gosh and NEVER speak with them too.

I do not say, I do not believe…
I do not say, I believe…
But , Yes propably they are some where…
I don’t know… could be on top your closet, or could be under my bed

Oh well, if one of them, under my bed, I just hope
he is a sexy Robert Redford, as smart as Henry Kissinger as noble as Ralph Nader as funny as Woody Allen and as athletic as Jimmy Conners

Then just…. “Helloooooo…. How you doing!“

(Damn Julia, silly entar beneran dateng loh, ha ha ha, nah just joking right!)

When people have fear… with something will freak them out and as they think, they see something…as gosh, actually, what they see, is something was they own creative….on they mind from they own fear.

But I do respect to dead people!
whatever they are,where ever they are, I believe they have, they own world,but not in my world.

So Those imaginative, those place
it’s some where…some where at my mind, my head and could be it was in my dream, and my imaginative as I creative those place out from my imagination…to my art imaginative.

So just be reality…
There is nothing to do with magic things
there is nothing to do with Nge pet
what ever that nge..nge…or pet..pet
(well kalau di pepet bajaj, iyah pernah , Grrr…. damn bajaj, but I like ride bajaj)

I can’t bent spoon
I can not conjure up my self with abracadabra as turn my self becomes tiger, (if I know how to do that, probably I gonna be rich woman and have sircus )

And I do not have knowledge about black magic
the only science I have is was from school, learning from school from starting I learning spell A , B , C, writing and reading and the other knowledge I have only from a life, as I’m TRYING, DISCIPLINE, FAITH and EXPERIENCE.

So This is Me, as Woman,as Single parent for my lovely kids and as an Artist who faith for FREEDOM for her ART.

The Spirit Of Tiger

If a tiger has entered your life, be prepared for changes and new adeventure!

The tiger is solitary spirit protecting its territory and coming together to mate and raise their young, In this aspect you are a person who need plenty of “space”

You can feel suffocoated easily by one who does not understand this. You are very loyal, loving and sensual, but must be with some one who really understand you.

The tiger is a nocturnal animal and gives those with the “Spirit of the tiger”
a special power during the night hours, Your creativity is enhanced during those hour. The tiger is also connected to New and Full Moon and the phases of the moon can influence you greatly. You should learn more about the power of the moon and how to use its various phases to best advantage in your life. As with most cats, the tiger is a sensual creature. it stretches , it muscles are smooth and sleep it rubs against tree other cats and is very sensitive to touch. A tiger spirit person has great feeling of touch and could learn psychometry very easily. This person also is sensitive to the touch of other and can be very sensual in physical relationships.

Unlike most of the cat family , the tiger loves swiming and will often just lay in the water and enjoy it. The tiger spirit person has an affinity for water and often lives near the water or would like to. The water element is one of psychic ability and emotional elements. You can be overly sensitive emotional, but if you call upon the power and knowledge of the tiger, you can control you life. The tiger is a free spirit and loves to roam and experience new things.

The tiger spirit is adventurous and loves to TRAVEL and experience new cultures. Learn new philosophies. Meet new people and yet can still maintain that “Solitary” image and feeling . At the same time, The tiger has very strong ties to its young. The tiger spirit has great motherly devotion and raise and teaches their children. All that they can while the children are withing their territory.

Tiger hunt silently and slowly and this can be a very beneficial trait to learn in the tiger spirit life. Weigh things carefully, don’t be in too much of a hurry, At the same time in your life when the tiger spirit speaks, slow down and becomes deliberate in your choices. If you feel you are being selfish, that is porbably for your own good. Everyone must learn to
“Do for themselves” before they can help other, You may also find your self interesed in
various pursuits that have not previously appealed to you. Follow your instincts.The tiger is a great leader

THE SPIRIT OF THE TIGER IS ;
POWER
COURAGE
DEVOTION
PASSION
ADVENTURE
SENSUALITY

http://animalspirits.ladyinblack.com/tiger_spirit.htm

DISCIPLINE TO ACHIEVE A FREEDOM FOR MY ART

Art painting or any kind of an art imaginative, are where truth is revealed and stories are born where itches can be scrarhed and love is limitless , where dreams are made reality and self discovery is an art

On art painting or art imaginative is same as write, those are reminders of good and bad times, progress evolution revolution sprituality learning and growing.

When an artist played the role countless times, sometimes happyness, angry sometimes violent, then egoistic … even sometimes mistery or mysterious Movie is a painting, an actress is just another color in the paint. … more to life than a movie for him/her, like reading news papers, or talking to her daughter. … I repeat It is better to be misunderstood than please people. …

Yes, people often miss understand an artist’s work (painting,poem or any kind of imaginative art )because they only see it in reproduction.

They look at a painting as if it is a photograph, and it becomes a photograph in the reproduction. They can’t say they understand anything about painting.

Then, because people haven’t seen the work in the real, they read these things and then they think, “Oh it’s that woman who …” and get it all wrong. Someone said I was “ Wow her artist my must Lesbian ” That was funny.

He said to me, “Don’t worry. You don’t have to explain everything, let’s just drop it.”

“No, I want to explain that, I would like to explain…!”

as my self, for some reason and an some case, hard for me to accept the words when people just saying to me, “alright just drop it”

Helloooooo… come on, no matter if you ever think me as I’m dumb, at least you got to give me a chance, to explain it, and listen.

But as an artist sometimes we understand… tidak semua orang awam bisa mengerti tentang art, special about painting or anything about art imaginative.

It’s same as my art imaginative pics.

“No, I don’t mean I get excited with violent ”
Alright…
from my hot temper, I’m Irish, but I m not Irish
for wall on wing in self pity and under achievement
I’m NOT come from a broke home.

And Yes!!!I am a sucker for anything about leather and about the Steel or any kind tools from steel or iron, I don’t know why, probably because, one of my dream as an artist was I don’t try best yet is about lightning, for try weld my creative from iron or steel, well I have done once before quiet long time ago when my age about 21 year old, but…for some reason my situation life and place…I don’t have chance to try again.

The history of My art imaginative ,is basicly is about a Feeling about something as most people cant touch but they can feel it, Emotions,Faith,Fear,Ego…and more and more

And the 2 of woman has been the main figure my imaginative as Illustration as for those feeling,and yes those art is really something that I’m learn from being around people, and learning about people and they own experience and even most also from my own experience,so I learned such a lot in general, not just about painting or imaginative pics art.

why I put a tiger as my imaginative art?

THE SPIRIT OF THE TIGERS IS was inspiration me
POWER

COURAGE

DEVOTION

PASSION

ADVENTURE

SENSUALITY

It’s difficult to keep life simple if you have multiple passion and desire, and I realize that, is not easy when we have a dreams, as we not only need hard work, talented and discipline, as far we are living in cry baby social, when some people who can accept and for who is not accept the freedom art,I have to pay price DISCIPLINE TO ACHIEVE A FREEDOM FOR MY ART and even for my own self an artist.I understand…

and no matter hard there,I may win or lose, I will be something, No matter how small!

The worst kind of artist is one who thinks they’re so wonderful because they don’t understand that there have been all these wonderful things done already, and that you exist in relation to that. just because they work as look weird, it’s doesn’t mean an artist weird or freak they own personal or they on past.
and Just because an artist from the past is dead doesn’t mean the work is dead. Art is something that relates you to the past, and hopefully to the present as well.

Learning To wait

Your prayers seem to go unanswered?
evidence of God’s working is scarce
you and fellow – belivers languish
while the Godless appers to flourish

then sometime we ask our self when we are in doubt
“is this God’s cruel joke?
or could there be a divine reason behind our sens of abandom ment?

or

we to learning to wait and patient.

Desperately, helplessly, longingly
I Cried :

Waiting for the answer

I pled and wept for a clue to my fate

“God, I need the answers, I need to know why! is your hand shortened?
or have you not heard?

by faith I have asked and am claming your word

“My future and all to which I can relate hangs in the balance and you tell me to wait?

I’m needing a “Yes” a go head sign or even a “No” to which I can resign.
“And God you promised that if we believe we need but to ask and we shall receive,

God I have been asking and this is my cry :

I’m weary of asking and I need reply!”

Learning to wait

I Could give you sign,

I could shake the heaven and draken the sun,
I could raise the idea and cause the mountain to ruin
all you asked me I could give and pleased you would be,
you would have what you want but, you wouldn’t know me,

you wouldn’t know the depth of my love for each saint
you would not know the power that I give to the faint
You would not learn to see through the clouds of despair
You would not learn to trust just by knowing I’m there
You would not know the joy of resting in me
when darkness and silence were all you can see

You would never experience that fullness of love as the peace of my spirit descends like a dove
You would know that I live and save…(for start)
but you would not know the depth of the beat of my heart

The glow of my comfort late into the night
the faith that i give when you walj with out sight
the depth that’s beyond getting just
what you asked of an infinite God
who make what you have last

You would never know should your pain quickly flee
what it means that my grace is sufficient for thee
“Yes your dreams for your loved
one over night would come true
but Oh the loss! if I lost what
I’m doing in you!

so be silent…and in time,you will see greatest of gifts is to get to know me and through oft may my answers seem terribly late my most precious answer of all is still “Wait” when it’s the time….it will come!

The smarter the woman gets, the more difficult for her to find a man!

” A Popular BUZZ word bandied about in live circle these days is “AVAILABLE”
the question is often asked ” Are you available ?“

Perhaps we have had the experience of finding ourselves attracted toward some one of the opposite sex… some one special… some one who available some one who will accept us the way as we are.

in recently months a number of my personal guy friend, was been kechap to me by phone or just trade short massage as trying to getting to know with me

Well I’m single …Available (damn Julia…SELF PROMOTION , well nothing wrong sometimes we need that… Well Let’s face it! we live in a society where the powerful, the beautiful and the bright usually get the recognition, the accolades and the promotions it’s pride – driven world of self that takes on at least of expression SELF PROMOTION - read my other blog “Pimp your self before they pimp you”)

Most the first time a man meet with me, mostly they talk to me about :

~ Are you seeing any one? NO

~ What do you for your life ? Artist painter and writer

~ How many kids you got? some, well I was to busy

~ Did you think, still want another kid?Well kids is gift as blessing from God, ask my self as human being as woman with my age closer to 40 and as the number my kid I had already UGH enough to make one club camp school so I’m happy and stick with I have now.

~How long you been divorce ? Quiet long, but don’t worry I’m not dry yet, I’m still can make bubble and sound OUPS!to much sorry

~ What kind a criteria guy do you like? well to many to tell, but my personalty not to picky person even I’ have side as greedy too , normally I’m dealing with what I see and I got and to the one who is available in front my nose, until it’s not work well, then I will make move.
~Why you still single….?

Bla…Bla…Bla….

~ Is dating harder for you?

I hearer, The smarter the woman get’s the more difficult for her to find a man!”

OH! Crap!!!! give me break, please…Don’t give me a such bulshit with that’s kind of pitty mind motto

PHEW!
what this wannabe “Discipler” or motoo failed to realize is generic to the art of discipling is the discipline of listening. The smarter the woman gets, the more difficult for her to find a man!

HERE THE BOTTOM LINE FOR KICKER THE ANSWER :
how else will we tap into the wellspring of a person’s soul to know “WHAT IS GOING ON IN THEIR LIFE?”

implied in this line of thinking of his joking the pitty motto some where out there is higher calling like there is;

“SMARTER ” and then there is the
“UNLUCKY person as being smart person”
and some how I can never quite get the two together….

Now , remain me as was my conversation chat with a man as best friend of mine from NJ, he was told me other day:

” My daughter is very smart. She got accepted to Cornell, I went to Cornell”

from that conversation chat, I can tell clearly how proud of him as father who had a daughter who smart… who does not?

But what happen when she is grown up…. are you gonna tell your daughter ………………………..

I don’t know your circumstances but I do know that God love us to much to allow us to take credit for Trying and Learning, that we may experience becomes smart….this is why we have brain.

Do You?

Smart is a person
Who learning
Who like to try , from those subject people becomes a person
Who has experience

My mother and other mother in this world , they smart cause every morning she creative with breakfast to serve her family.

and your wife they smart too…, they taking care the kids, family, house and even some other woman at same time do another job as her carrer beside being a mother…
Intelligence is not about how much you know. It is acknowledging what you do not know. It is about taking various bits of information and then using that information to form your own opinions, thoughts, and actions.

So…

The smarter the woman gets, the more difficult for her to find the right man
Sometimes but not all the time.. maybe because the guys gets intimidated to a by the woman’s strong personality.. …

” Naaaah…. she is to smart ! ( ugh sorry,excuse me so you excepting the dumb woman ?)

see you don’t give a change to your self and to the a woman
Ok she is smart…but what’s wrong with that?
what the reason to shake your dry bone knees and the freak hit though up your brain, then make you claim to fame as you are not deserve with smart woman or the opposite?

if the answer your doubt because ; You cant handle them?

I m sorry….

I suggest , for anticipating brain surgery, I suspect you would want to be sure the surgeon got an “A” “brain operation 101″ that’s silly right…

Smart woman also human being,
Sure beside they have side strong personality but they also have weak side too
Smart woman also have racks and ass OUPS, … sorry this nothing to do with being smart oke…but oh yeah now you like if I make comments this
Smart woman also can be dumb sometimes.(happen to me sometimes, as I m being silly, I can be dumb)

I don’t judge my intelligence by what I think I judge it by what other people think. Quite frankly, I have no idea how I rate compared to others and WHO CARE!!! but I do know, I’m smart

Now for all woman….

Is dating harder for smarter woman, has being smart woman hurt your dating life?

I think it’s … human nature to want to figure out why you are not successful at something that others appear to be successful at

You look for answers as to why you are not in a serious relationship when the rest of the world looks like they’re happily ever after.

So we tell ourselves something like, “It must be because you just happy with you are right now and your life…and when is come the right time… it will come!”

and I don’t think being “brainy” has to eclipse one’s personality…if you are not a snob about it. Brains can bring wit and compassion to a relationship…just think about it!

Nb:
On The Voice of Kartini ( 21 April )

Hidup Wanita Sedunia dan HIDUP PEREMPUAN INDONESIA

“Dengan belajar , menekunin dan mencoba kita tidak akan terpuruk di ke gelapan!”

(weleh weleh teriak nya kaya proklamasi kemerdekaan ajah, ampe male neh…. )

~ I’M on The Top Of Mountain ~

Week ago, I had bad day, I got angry, struggle with lust …During week , I was picking up pieces and starting over again, learning and trying to accepting, and yesterday morning in my time with God as I “Licked my wonds ” I offered up my prayer to God

And in the morning after finished pray, I wept through my coffee breakfast with my father.This is unsually as he knows, I was always spent time my coffee morning alone with my messy papers and sit out side,seen sight people busy in morning around inside my komplex.

like a poem…
when tongue taste the smell coffee
when the brain breakfast with paper
and the eyes can exercise with see something good (why not!!!any way,

Then he break the quiet

” What happen ?”

with taste my coffee morning in my tongue, I start to sharing the problem to him , then he give me the answer shortly.

” You are on the top of mountain “

“Alright dad, but it’s pain in ass…!” ( speaking being on top mountain, I like be on top he he but not with pain in ass, thats must another story…)

“Yep! thats cost to going be success”

Success not only need hard work or perseverance
but success needs suffer
success needs cost!

You cant just stay at home sleeping all day and dreaming then when wake up you got success!

Or
Just being busy pray in some place and hoping you got success instant shortly by magic word

Back to my father word

I’m on the top of mountain

Yes Imagine that right now
surfing the waves of the mountain mantaning balance my self in ladder of being success

and Imagine there is the wind will blow me nice (for every person who likes what you DO or write ) or…….sometimes maybe worse the wind will flash me harsh (two will hate it and three will be indifferent)

and in day time, there is sun will keep me warm or some probbaly will hit me as burnt me

and in the night …. there is moon will give me light, but a moon also can appear to dark as they gone, then you feel scared to fall down…so all those is about test.

so is that so many of us wake up in mid-live with a pit in our stomach feeling we lack meaning value or purpose?

Perhaps is it because in our drive for “SUCCESS” we have highlighted the temporal at the expense of that which is truly significant the Enternal

What prize success?

When you mention the word, “success” does having a successful career and family together with mandatory possessions like a big house and a fancy car, come to mind? If so, why? Is that society’s definition of success that we have been conditioned to believe in?

Nevertheless, it is never easy to shake off society’s version of success. How many times have you been made to feel like a failure just because you earn less than your over-achieving your friend ?

“What prize success? she doesn’t have car, she even lately difficult to pay her own rent!”

There are some who feel that only ‘losers’ think that being happy in life is of prime importance. They think it is an excuse for not making the cut.

“success” To me, being able to do what one has set out to do no matter how small or supposedly insignificant, in the eyes of others is success in its essence.

More importantly, is that our definition of success? Is that what we want? Or is that what our parents or society wants? It is really up to you to fix your own definition of success.

In fact, it is imperative that you do so to give yourself the right direction in life, for your dream and successful

So when you feel on the top of mountain

Focus on your goals, is scaling Mount Everest is what you deem as success
Once you have decided what it is that you really want in life, you would not be bothered by what others think of you. It is a liberating experience – you become free from others’ yardstick.

Nb. Yang menghancurkan ke success – an kita , itu bukan orang lain, tapi terkadang dari diri kita sendiri, Ketika kita berada di atas awan yang putih dengan nama kita yang harum dan di saat itu sebenarnya kita juga sedang di coba dengan yang di atas….dan di saat pamor kita down, orang sudah tidak percaya lagi, banyak dari mereka mencari cari kesalahan dari orang lain, atau melempar kesalahan ke orang lain atas runtuh nya ke suksess-an nya.

Let’s just admist that it’s hard to humble when you are soooo good! correct or not?

sankin good nya terkadang mereka lupa
~ Siapa yang memberi…
dan siapa pula yang akan mengambil nya kembali nanti.

Di saat kita terhujat, atau apa pun of course sebagai manusia sekuat apa pun setegar apa pun, pasti akan merasakan rasa sakit dan terpukul, sekuat apa pun iman mereka, tetap juga akan merasakan rasa sakit itu, begitu jg dengan saya. tapi di saat kita pasrah, dan menerima itu sebagai bentuk cobaan buat kita (dalam bentuk apapun dengan berpikir karna “Tuhan sayang dengan kita” memang tidak mudah untuk melakukan nya, tapi kalau kita mencoba nya,
Pasrah bukan berati kita kalah, tapi sebalik nya kita menang, menang untuk melawan hawa nafsu kita untuk tidak berbuat jahat dengan tidak menhujat kembali orang yang memberi kita sakit dan hard time.
dengan begitu rasa sakit yang tadi besar akan menghilang sedikit demi sedikit, bahkan kita akan lupa kalau kita pernah di kecewakan atau di sakitin.

GBU

~ The Birth a Vision of Leader ~

“Aim at nothing and you are sure to hit it”

Sure you are something …. sweetie
you just don’t give a credit to your self, that you know something and you can do.

Sometimes my friend or people who is not knowing me well, will judge me as I’m Dom person, even some of woman who I know was judge me as not happy word as told other woman as I’m the person who like to take control people or friend!

Sometimes yes I realize too, YES!forgive me... they way I’m talk and act sometimes I’m feel like as leader, but I never thinking want be

leader. I even never ever have thought want to control some people or even my owns friends. I do not want Dom any one either.

but if they are my truelly friend who know me well, they will understand me, I guess I’m just a person who like telling straight what I would like to do and what I know… and what I want ! I’ m not haste either to listen,learning and follow the advice or opinion from other people or friend.

I’m just think, why we need to wait until some one stand up and saying they have the idea or advice, if you also have your own idea or your opinion, why not let them know your idea,

Hey….if ya got it, FLAUNT IT! Right? cause if you don’t toot your own horn idea, who will?

Back in my child memory
like my father was ask before when I was kid, when we went out to restaurant as took all family to eat.

“What do you like to eat? he ask my mom…
“I don’t know” she say that probably because to many choice of menu make her confused

“What do you like to eat?” also he ask one by one to his kids. all give same answer…
” I don’t know dad, up to you…”
then he was just give us smile and saying

“For just your own food and for you stomach, you don’t have a passion or desire to think, and not even have idea, what will be make it you guys happy to eat… ”

“How you gonna have an idea and desire, what would like to be on the future? are you have desire being a doctor? or an artist?”

Leader! isn’t that the hot word today?

The tearm “Leader or Leadership” is kinda titillates your ego, doesn’t it?
Intresting! is it not that….but spoke profusely on Servanthood

Every human being we are born as leader!
Anyone can be a leader, even if the only person they’re leading is themselves.
every person we are leader for the responsibility our things;

I m leader for my self

I m responsibility for my self for anything what I need , I do and things

I m leader for my kids as parents

I m leader for my self as wife

I m responsibility for taking care my husband and kids
I m leader for my lover…
then more and more….and more….

Effective leaders will be servants who have attracted a following because of their passion, vision, integrity and love for people, we will make effort to develop this kind of leader

But you can’t become a leader just by saying you are, Leadership needs to be worked at.

” I want chicken Gordon blue!”

You know what you want
you know the idea and plans what you like to eat
you know what a passion will make your stomach happy to eat
you ask for… then
you eat that meal

in other word…
you know what you want
you have a passion
you know the idea
you got the plans
you let them know as share your plan
you do it and…
prove it your vision

If you don’t they will not believe you have anything to contribute in a conversations

There are a lot of people out there proclaiming how good they are …. (talk is cheap)but few actually deliver the goods

President Lydon Jonhson keep a sign on his wall

” You Ain’t learning nothing when you’re doing all the talking”

isn’t there an object lesson in the fact that God gave us one mouth and two ears (that’s for man actually, woman more lucky blessing got 2 mouth ha ha ha )

“let the wise listen and add to their learning…..

Leader To Be Human is To Be Wounded

The real qualities of leader are to be found in those who are willing to suffer for the sake of objectives great enough to demand their whole hearted obedience.

Leader also human being
Leader is not Dom
can be wounded
can be wrong too

if you motives in pursuing leader are notless than a desire intimacy with Dom you are sadly on the wrong track

Now…

which rung of corperate leader you are on?

~ Greedy control over your resource ?
or

~ As you a mature leader and gain in stature are you still willing to learn from the most humble of source?

listen with the intent to understand
Value the other person and their input.

So even if we haven’t yet fully dealt with the question of whether leaders are born or can be made, let’s look at some of the qualities needed from a leader.

Yes! I’m leader :

1.I have plans

~ I Built
~ I made
~ I Bought
~ I Owned
~ I amassed

2. I have a vision.

3. I share my vision

4. I Takes charge.

5. I’m inspires through example.

And finally, I becomes my self as my personal
the brief auto biography of one such a leader person.

P – R – E – S – S – U – R – E Beat S – U – R – E

Disconnected ?

Isolated ?

Abused?

Have you ever been crushed by circumstance ? over whelmed by life or from stranger people ? Bad day being abused?
struggled with lust whip – lashed by situation that’s seems out your control?

Struggled with bitterness and pain and found your self critical of almost every one who crossed your path?

Ever feel like a prisoner to your surroundings? or to life it self?

feel like a wedged chicken bone in your throat? when you can’t do anything?

Struggling with your worth as person, feel like wearing electric remote control necklace around your neck? by a situation that seems people try control out of your life? abused?

P – R – E – S – S – U – R – E ever like calling it Quits?
after while who need the pressure ? Right?

What do you do when the pressure of your life or profession seems to be beat you

Allow your self to be self pity party by anger and becomes bitter?

~ pouting over it

~ Smashing it?

~ Criticize the person inflicting the pain?

grumpy and shout like gun explode with out bullet?

or

Stay awake night seeking a solution and screaming with your motto:

I WONT GIVE UP…

SHUT UP…

I M GONNA LET UP…

UNTIL I HAVE STAYED UP…

STORE UP…

PAID YOU UP

Well …
have no problem reconizing then, Your banner will be clear as FUCK UP…. ( he he he I better keep shut up not comment on the last word, any way…ugh there is any better beside being up? OUPS! LOL)

Or…

Try ignored and shallow?

hheheheh… how does sound with shallow? (shut Up julia keep going your write OUPS!!! )

Or do you have it under control with….

~ List and define your trouble

~ Give thanks for your blessing and look for what “didn’t happen“

~ Amidst your problem ask this question:

“Have I contributed to the cause?”

~ Explore the possible and potensial benefits that can come from the pain ( Di setiap masalah selalu ada hikmah nya, dan ambil ke untungan nya secara positive )

Np. Yeah I could be H-A-C-K-E-R why not?

H ot

A ctive

C reative

K eeper

E nchant and

R omantic

~IF NOT US – WHO? IF NOT NOW – WHEN ? ~

When a moon kissing the sun,
The two made love enters to the world,
The two became one,
from desire and passion hot,
singging on their lyric of

” Ugh – ugh – Ah – ah ”

( he he he… wasn’t me, “duh – duh – Yes – yes – yank – yank ” YEP…am I right ‘yank? nah just a joke)

When a child enters the world from the warm and secure environment of the womb her announces

” I have arrived and I expect you – all of you to respond at once to my every need, whim and desire !”

and we are the enthralled parents of this littel bundle of cuddly

” GOo – goo – ga – ga “ joyfully comply, immediately
The other afternoon as I walked around my complex parents house on street to walk give my leg straight after couple hour sit and smeel my oil painting, I passed by family

” Father and Son “

a young man was walked with his son just for looking see sight afternoon ( it’s beautiful right?)

Perhaps parents motto is :

“If Not us – WHO ? If Not now – WHEN ?”

And the next afternoon , I crept back walked out side the house
I again passed other family a young man with his father
about 70’s who were spent time afternoon walked together around complek house.

throughout the day I was plagued by the memory of those family

“Will your children want you around when you are in you 70’s or 80’s?”

I don’t know about you! in fact as I write, I’m just one of from other blessing single parent who get a chance to spent time again with my kids, better to late than nothing

IF NOT US – WHO? IF NOT NOW WHEN?

1. start where you are
“bloom where you are planted”

2. Do what you can
managed to spend some time with your kids just doing something they like

3. Use what you’ve got
~ Time
~ Communicating
~ Love

Np.
(like my other blog “People can change”… yes cause we are
People not only can change but People sometimes must be change …
One popular saying that’s always struck me as particularly pity and harmful is, “People don’t change.”

if you want it, it’s always chance there and better to late then nothing )
hanya orang bijak yang memahami pengalaman dan cerita orang sebagai buku panduan dan pengetahuan dan mencoba untuk belajar and take it chance to change dan mengambil hikmah nya dari pengalaman dan cerita setiap orang, bukan malah menvonis cerita dan pengalaman orang sebagai sumpahan atau sindirin buat diri kamu.
well why not we use motto as Better to late than nothing… ( for my other blog I’m gonna be like you) tidak ada yg sempurna di dunia ini, so am I, tapi kita bisa mencoba untuk menjadi yg terbaik but not trying to be prefect, see kalau orang lain bisa kenapa kita tidak?