~ I’M on The Top Of Mountain ~

Week ago, I had bad day, I got angry, struggle with lust …During week , I was picking up pieces and starting over again, learning and trying to accepting, and yesterday morning in my time with God as I “Licked my wonds ” I offered up my prayer to God

And in the morning after finished pray, I wept through my coffee breakfast with my father.This is unsually as he knows, I was always spent time my coffee morning alone with my messy papers and sit out side,seen sight people busy in morning around inside my komplex.

like a poem…
when tongue taste the smell coffee
when the brain breakfast with paper
and the eyes can exercise with see something good (why not!!!any way,

Then he break the quiet

” What happen ?”

with taste my coffee morning in my tongue, I start to sharing the problem to him , then he give me the answer shortly.

” You are on the top of mountain “

“Alright dad, but it’s pain in ass…!” ( speaking being on top mountain, I like be on top he he but not with pain in ass, thats must another story…)

“Yep! thats cost to going be success”

Success not only need hard work or perseverance
but success needs suffer
success needs cost!

You cant just stay at home sleeping all day and dreaming then when wake up you got success!

Or
Just being busy pray in some place and hoping you got success instant shortly by magic word

Back to my father word

I’m on the top of mountain

Yes Imagine that right now
surfing the waves of the mountain mantaning balance my self in ladder of being success

and Imagine there is the wind will blow me nice (for every person who likes what you DO or write ) or…….sometimes maybe worse the wind will flash me harsh (two will hate it and three will be indifferent)

and in day time, there is sun will keep me warm or some probbaly will hit me as burnt me

and in the night …. there is moon will give me light, but a moon also can appear to dark as they gone, then you feel scared to fall down…so all those is about test.

so is that so many of us wake up in mid-live with a pit in our stomach feeling we lack meaning value or purpose?

Perhaps is it because in our drive for “SUCCESS” we have highlighted the temporal at the expense of that which is truly significant the Enternal

What prize success?

When you mention the word, “success” does having a successful career and family together with mandatory possessions like a big house and a fancy car, come to mind? If so, why? Is that society’s definition of success that we have been conditioned to believe in?

Nevertheless, it is never easy to shake off society’s version of success. How many times have you been made to feel like a failure just because you earn less than your over-achieving your friend ?

“What prize success? she doesn’t have car, she even lately difficult to pay her own rent!”

There are some who feel that only ‘losers’ think that being happy in life is of prime importance. They think it is an excuse for not making the cut.

“success” To me, being able to do what one has set out to do no matter how small or supposedly insignificant, in the eyes of others is success in its essence.

More importantly, is that our definition of success? Is that what we want? Or is that what our parents or society wants? It is really up to you to fix your own definition of success.

In fact, it is imperative that you do so to give yourself the right direction in life, for your dream and successful

So when you feel on the top of mountain

Focus on your goals, is scaling Mount Everest is what you deem as success
Once you have decided what it is that you really want in life, you would not be bothered by what others think of you. It is a liberating experience – you become free from others’ yardstick.

Nb. Yang menghancurkan ke success – an kita , itu bukan orang lain, tapi terkadang dari diri kita sendiri, Ketika kita berada di atas awan yang putih dengan nama kita yang harum dan di saat itu sebenarnya kita juga sedang di coba dengan yang di atas….dan di saat pamor kita down, orang sudah tidak percaya lagi, banyak dari mereka mencari cari kesalahan dari orang lain, atau melempar kesalahan ke orang lain atas runtuh nya ke suksess-an nya.

Let’s just admist that it’s hard to humble when you are soooo good! correct or not?

sankin good nya terkadang mereka lupa
~ Siapa yang memberi…
dan siapa pula yang akan mengambil nya kembali nanti.

Di saat kita terhujat, atau apa pun of course sebagai manusia sekuat apa pun setegar apa pun, pasti akan merasakan rasa sakit dan terpukul, sekuat apa pun iman mereka, tetap juga akan merasakan rasa sakit itu, begitu jg dengan saya. tapi di saat kita pasrah, dan menerima itu sebagai bentuk cobaan buat kita (dalam bentuk apapun dengan berpikir karna “Tuhan sayang dengan kita” memang tidak mudah untuk melakukan nya, tapi kalau kita mencoba nya,
Pasrah bukan berati kita kalah, tapi sebalik nya kita menang, menang untuk melawan hawa nafsu kita untuk tidak berbuat jahat dengan tidak menhujat kembali orang yang memberi kita sakit dan hard time.
dengan begitu rasa sakit yang tadi besar akan menghilang sedikit demi sedikit, bahkan kita akan lupa kalau kita pernah di kecewakan atau di sakitin.

GBU