~ The Battle Fear The Battle to Fear itsSelf ~

When it come to growing into imagination my art, I often have a illusion that it can be done ONE night, that some how through certain imagination experience or the expression of the gifts.

The “process” of my art imaginations growth can be hurried up or short circuited

when I go this route, I end up with squashy, weak…strong, tough, I m fall down, I’m stand up again…if I’m fall down, I’m trying to stand up again.

If My ART are here DONE today and probably GONE tomorrow, but it will LIVE.

In other hand, I understand that the process of my maturity takes a great deal of time, energy, patience, faith and just plain living through the storm of life.

The Battle itself The battle to Your Ego

so this is not WAR WORLD, NOT end of world

The art about the Battle, The Battle of your self, The battle for your life.(we are fighter, fighter for our life and our stand )

Many of us like with a certain dread of the future
a fear that some day the bottom will fall out, a fear that plague will eventually get us!

Fear :

~ clouds our judgment
~ Paralyzes our actions
~ Cause us to delay rationalize over – spritualize
~ promotes paranoia
~ Induces us to think irrationally to loose objectivity
~ Destroy our trust in others
~ Diminishes our ability to believe. Risk.Act and to face it the problem
~ Maybe a reason we impute wrong motives to others
~ Is often the product of our pride
~ Refuse to believe God is there!

Every person will have to fear his own…. load of oppressive fault
one of the toughest battle you will conitinually face in life is with your self,Your EGO,selfish,lust, and Your anger…..

Anger usually focuses on our disappointment over occuresences of the past,The violation of our “RIGHT” frustration over how things have turned
out or lack of fulfillment over not having achieved our goal.
we either doubt God’s ability to manage our lives or we resent his sovereign intrusion into them,

Fear usually focuses on our anxious anticipatin of the future : Do we have what it takes to realize our hope and aspirations or will our lives crash in upon us?in the future will some uninvited calamity make it’s intrusion ?

Banyak dari manusia yg berpikir, mereka takut dengan musuh nya,
padahal… yang sesungguh nya musuh yang paling menakutkan sebenarnya adalah di dalam diri kita sendiri.So the only things we have to fear is fear itself!

Sometimes some people think they have an enemy, and not often too they think they need a bodyguard to protect them.well for some other case purpose, I can be understand that,like big company or country,ect..

But for a single simple person, what make you think you need some one to protect (unless, you know your self, you got so much problem or giving cost to people then, then you have reason to be scared as feel unscure as people/enemy will attach you or hurting you…so you need a protect from some one)

what make you think you have enemy?

and what make you worry and fear that would make you shit your pants?

Yes! We all have fear because we are human, I do too, ….and thats natural…..and I think all living beings have fear of one or another thing…..fear is a part of life….
Fear is something to deal with. The body demands an explanation of what has brought you to the thin edge of life of some of these places.

But the fear you should be to fear is fear it self and Ego – The Enemy Of Self.

Your speech ( hasut sini hasut sono, dan ujung2 nya cuma jadi penghianat )

Your path, your action and everything have cost!(Sebab dan Akibat)
Good Or Bad is depending back to what you have make it and giving cost to other , life and things.

is example :

You put salt on your meal…. ( Speaking that salt, Me and My daughter she love salt )

As we know salt is good, and we need that It is the sodium (ions) present in salt that the body requires in order to perform a variety of essential functions.

Salt can have a powerful influence on changing its environment
Salt when rightly applied to food can transform in from unappealing bladness into a delectable gourment experience.

But if you cant control as to much salt on your meal…and each day by day and each meal you put over salt, you are just invest leaving to further complications later in life.

it’s same as your ego, the cost what you done it was invest and creative a enemy.

Ask yourself …

1. Do you think and feel that outer life needs to deliver you “things” in order for you to be happy?

2. Do you struggle to take responsibility that you have created the aspects in your life that haven’t worked?

3. Do you blame people and situations outside of yourself when things go wrong?

4. Do you often feel needy and try to make things happen in order to feel better?

5. Do you have trouble accepting other people’s opinions and view points?

6. Do you struggle to be vulnerable and real around other people?

7. Do you believe your happiness is dependent on how other people see you or what you have? your things, your power, your bla bla…. (panjang ah males ngetik nya )

8. Do you find it difficult to encourage and grant other people compliments?

9. Do you employ competitive behaviour and feel envious and jealous of other people that may have or experience things you don’t? ( cemburu, masih bisa di mengerti, semua manusia pasti punya rasa cemburu, cuma kadar nya setiap orang berbeda, but envious (sirik) that’s bad, ampun bu penyakit tuh!)

10. Do you fear that people who love you can hurt you or control you?

11. Do you struggle to maintain peace, harmony and co-operation with people?

12. Do you have trouble trusting people and situations – and expect people and life to act in ways that are “wrong”? ( Biarin tar juga kemakan sendiri ama kata2 tulisan blog nya, Watch, soon or later she/he will fall down! ect…. ect…. )

13. Do you put on a front around other people so that they may like you? they should be like you and they should follow you?

14. Do you often look at life as “what can I get” rather than “what can I give?”

15. Do you think that you are on your own in life?

16. Do you feel defensive when confronted with issues?

17. Do you judge negative things that show up in your life and have trouble understanding the gift?

18. Have many of your problems been replaying the same themes?

19. Do you struggle to take responsibility with humility when you make a mistake?

20. Do you have hard time saying “I was wrong would you forgive me?”

Let’s be honest, we find sometimes to do what we really want, as just follow the ego,what to do, well keep in mind that, ultimate freedom in life is abilty to choose the right attitude,and because your attitude (kelakuan,sikap,tabiat) is centered in your will…and life, to invest a freedom of peace or to creative a enemy!

As my self, I’m not perfect either… YES! we all has experience make mistake, Fault,Dumb, even probably hurting some one, it’s were we do on purpose or not on purpose, as we are human that sometimes can make mistake, it’s still normal, some people can still understand
and some will forgiving. from 100, 50 people will understand, 25 will forgiviness and remember in this world not only live a bad people,even they are allot’s (probably include me ) but a good people and understanding people also allot.

~ THE BATTLE OF THE WRITER ~

Some people say, mostly (make it mark… mostly and Some ,not All …)
The word of the writer is more SHARP then a knife

How should I agree with this?

Yes or NO!

It’s true, but also it’s depending back to they own person /personal

Yes, as writer we have knowledge as easy to expression anything with words, from simply things, heavy one, funny to make it people laugh, happy to make people smile or make them learning, Good or Bad, Sad, even worst thing as SHARP then a Knife

~The thought of the writer can be gun
The words of the writer can be bullet

~The Thought of the writer can be teacher
The words of the writer can be guidance

~The thought of the writer can be world
The words of the writer can be picture…as you can see the world by they words

and more … more and more….

Yes a write is same like other artist, we need a freedom to our thought expression and a freedom to write.
But remember, the REAL writer we have rule, we have rule the above and agree to the terms and conditions as writer.

” That easy becomes a writer, with they knowledge abilty, they can judge people , shoot people with their words and bla bla….”

Naaaaaaaaaaa! hey, I’m witer Not nenek lampir!

The writer they also have they own battle self, like I said, it’s depending back to they own self, what people do not know…

The writer…
They battle self to they own words….
They Thought…
They speech…. ( Do I speech truthful? Straight forward? or misslanding?)

the writer also human being, they can be make mistake, so if there is words or my write and pic was not make some people feel not comfortable
I would like to say here ” Please forgive me..”

Np: A human being. I am one person for one moment and another the next. … In that sense yes, our ego is weak. But yes, we need a Ego too. …. but in the positive sense of enjoying the duty to which you dedicated yourself,for incite the desire of our dream and sucesss.

I’m not just writing things in shit on a toilet wall, If I am a sensitive little flower and, not heeding the warning, still writing the blog only to find something that offends people, I will never writing the blog again. To do otherwise would be stupid and my write that I am a masochistic and feeble nerd with no life.

I will write, and Still write…and Do my art….