PLAYING AROUND OUR IMAGINATION

For a While we may appear to defy gravity by juggling our secret inner imagination and thoughts with our external world of studied conformity to accept norms in fact some of us should get an Oscar for our acting abilty…

Most from some people think , I’m a dreaming woman, even some woman who I know was judge me as call me, “Suka Menghayal!”

well remember,” Jika kamu bisa memimpikan nya, kamu bisa mendapat kan nya!”

Yes, I have a dreams and it’s difficult to keep life simple if I have multiple passion and desire

When I’m busy with my art,drawing, painting or anything to do with my art imaginative, all I need just music in my head and sit relax on my chair!
and everything just about me and my art and I will swim deep in my own world, as my mind fly around just about my art and my imagination.
Everything just seem quite for me, sometimes even deadly quite around me, even my bald eyes, seem lazy to move around to see the right or left side.

Not because I do not care with people around me, or was busy thing around me, and YES! seem I just don’t care!
who was walk past from the left or right or even to some people who was stand up near my table, if I was in cafe.

Some people have a difference way , yes every one difference! and I have my own way difference, my mind, my body, my soul,even my feeling they have own way to soar and progress my imagination as take me and drag me to my own world, again where it’s just about me and my art!

Do you think that creative people are usually more imaginative?

I think it depends more on the person actually.
One of my sister is creative but she doesn’t exactly have an imagination
My dad isn’t creative but he has an enough active imagination.
I’m creative and I have an over-active imagination.
It depends on the individual.

Before I was kid I was wondering my self :

“Where was I have been?”

“Where is that place?”

and I spoke my self…

“what happen, if I cant come back again?”
“is there….there is a door? so I can come back?”

Well, I m not a daddy girl, but yes, he is like my best friend, I like to talk to him, and I prefer talk with some one who is from my own family, if something I do not understand or something was doubt me…my father not an artist painter,but he had good taste for art and understand about the art things, he loved to give comments and options, but what ever he give me comment and his options,he always knew, the actions it’s always in my own thought and it’s always my choice

YES!!! most all the time…. the choose is mine.

But for some reason , I do too a very few time thought about his options and follow.

and I’m always remember what he say….

I saw you and tell you there is light over there…
I teach you and guide you how to go walk over there
there is left way…
there is right way…
and there is straight way…
I will teach you my away in beginning how to go to the light
but, I m not can carry you…
you have to try go walk by your self with your feet and step
even you have to grope in the dark as you walk
then when you walk, you have own your thought and choice too
which one is the best? did you still stick with my step and my follow? until you go to the light? or you have your own choice as better way then mine, to go there more fast and safe to the light!

I don’t know, sometimes I feel, I’m right and satisfied but sometimes also I felt fail with my own choose, but I never feel regret and not blame any one and I do too trying hard too not blame my self.

According from him: every human being we all got blessing from god as he give us a talented, but every each people is difference talented and difference how they explore out and how they do with they own abilty,
some people good on other side,some other people good on the other difference side
how they good or bad, how those big or small they ability is also It depends on the individual and back to they own self again.

Jika kamu tahu cara menggalinya
dan jika kamu menggali nya dengan serius
kamu akan mengangkat bakat yang terpendam keluar…
semua itu sudah ada di dalam diri kita masing masing, dan kembali lagi kepada diri kita sendiri, bagaimana cara kita mengunakan nya dan menggali nya.

Yes, as My self, I thanks full to God…
I know how to explore out my talented
I know how to explore out my imagination
and I know how to drag my self and mind to feel it my imaginations
so I can sense and feel like, I was go deep to my own world imagination.

he said :

“That because you was enjoying what you do and you enjoying your drawing and you respect full your imagination, so you can feel and sense it’s almost like real that you can be buried your self in your own world art and imagination

and he remain me again, for some people who is not trust they self and to they own feeling and sense, most they just think as weird with they own imagination, even some will felt scared think as worry other people will think Crazy and for people who is never respect with they own talented or they imagination most people who is never felt satisfaction with they own gift and with what they do, never felt satisfy with they own attainment.

“What happen,If I was to deep with my mind and my imagination and buried my self there and never come back?”
and there is ….no door there…?

my father was just giving me a big smile and I can remember that, he was just like a little laugh like I was made funny with my questions.

” As your art imaginative and painting ,The one who can control your mind and your imagination, it’s you… Your self!

he say:
When we imagination something, that also we try creative something in our mind and fantasy…
and your drawing your imaginative it’s like a movie, and think like as a movie
you creative that’s imaginative and imagination as you are the sutradara…
you creative that story as you put scenario on your mind as what will be like your fantasy and those imaginative as your wish…
and sometimes, you also can be the actor for your imagination your imaginative art or drawing fantasy.

Everything on your hands and your mind
when you think is enough , you will stop
and you don’t need a door
the key in your hands
you can make bad as you want that imagination as you wish…
you can buried your self deep in there…
you can make it good or
even you can ruin bad that your imagination
it’s yours… you the one who control that!

You can buried your self as you wish as long you want
and for some people who never come back again
that because…
they living in they own fantasy, those people who is cant accept and cant make a discriminate between real life and fantasy.

Any way, after that conversation with my father was make me feel better and I never doubt and worry any more, I was keep drawing and enjoying ever momment my own world when I was drawing…writing even when do with my art pics.

What do you think our world would be like without creative people in it, your opinions and thoughts?

I wouldn’t exactly be having this write and conversation about my art without the creativity of Mr. Gates.
But we need a balance in life – some creative some not. That’s the way I see it.

Np: All Those, it’s my art, from my hard work, and DISCIPLINE and FAITH. maybe for some people think is crazy or nothing, but for me, it’s everything and I’m satisfied at least I have been try to make it happen from one of my other dream art.
and I would like to say thank you for all the website I have been joint to all my friends who has in my friends list and any where, who support me.
Thank You

FAITH FOR THE FREEDOM OF ART

Sometimes I need to ask my self ,
whether…

I M WILLING TO PAY THE PRICE OF DISCIPLINE TO ACHIEVE A FREEDOM of my thought for my art
the tool exacted upon me for the lack of discipline will, in the long run for exceed
the price I now pay for freedom through discipline
Through from the pain
Through from my faith…

Now here, I’m with my art imaginative :

Those ~ who was in my head
those ~ who was my imaginative
those ~ the picture who I was creative by my imaginations, as an artist and my talented,

by feel, by sense, by testing, by character, by emotions, and more…more
by the eyes through my head, when you cant see directly from my head
by ears with thousand and billions voice….when you cant listen.

Where the place? and where those place…it’s just a place….no dark, not bright either, not smell , not bad either, not hot not cold either, it’s just a place….

I tell you a little bit about me :

I’m NOT to religious person and as human I do not perfect either,
You can see me sometimes, I’m still like wearing my favorite short skirt,
I’m still like sometimes, even often teasing a guys with my naughty joke on my write
(Well that’s my bad habbit, sorry….)

I NEVER see heaven before, and I NEVER see hell either, and I DO NOT KNOW what is look like those place either!

But I do believe with God, and I believe with Heaven and Hell

And in my life I NEVER SEE or MEET gosh and NEVER speak with them too.

I do not say, I do not believe…
I do not say, I believe…
But , Yes propably they are some where…
I don’t know… could be on top your closet, or could be under my bed

Oh well, if one of them, under my bed, I just hope
he is a sexy Robert Redford, as smart as Henry Kissinger as noble as Ralph Nader as funny as Woody Allen and as athletic as Jimmy Conners

Then just…. “Helloooooo…. How you doing!“

(Damn Julia, silly entar beneran dateng loh, ha ha ha, nah just joking right!)

When people have fear… with something will freak them out and as they think, they see something…as gosh, actually, what they see, is something was they own creative….on they mind from they own fear.

But I do respect to dead people!
whatever they are,where ever they are, I believe they have, they own world,but not in my world.

So Those imaginative, those place
it’s some where…some where at my mind, my head and could be it was in my dream, and my imaginative as I creative those place out from my imagination…to my art imaginative.

So just be reality…
There is nothing to do with magic things
there is nothing to do with Nge pet
what ever that nge..nge…or pet..pet
(well kalau di pepet bajaj, iyah pernah , Grrr…. damn bajaj, but I like ride bajaj)

I can’t bent spoon
I can not conjure up my self with abracadabra as turn my self becomes tiger, (if I know how to do that, probably I gonna be rich woman and have sircus )

And I do not have knowledge about black magic
the only science I have is was from school, learning from school from starting I learning spell A , B , C, writing and reading and the other knowledge I have only from a life, as I’m TRYING, DISCIPLINE, FAITH and EXPERIENCE.

So This is Me, as Woman,as Single parent for my lovely kids and as an Artist who faith for FREEDOM for her ART.

The smarter the woman gets, the more difficult for her to find a man!

” A Popular BUZZ word bandied about in live circle these days is “AVAILABLE”
the question is often asked ” Are you available ?“

Perhaps we have had the experience of finding ourselves attracted toward some one of the opposite sex… some one special… some one who available some one who will accept us the way as we are.

in recently months a number of my personal guy friend, was been kechap to me by phone or just trade short massage as trying to getting to know with me

Well I’m single …Available (damn Julia…SELF PROMOTION , well nothing wrong sometimes we need that… Well Let’s face it! we live in a society where the powerful, the beautiful and the bright usually get the recognition, the accolades and the promotions it’s pride – driven world of self that takes on at least of expression SELF PROMOTION - read my other blog “Pimp your self before they pimp you”)

Most the first time a man meet with me, mostly they talk to me about :

~ Are you seeing any one? NO

~ What do you for your life ? Artist painter and writer

~ How many kids you got? some, well I was to busy

~ Did you think, still want another kid?Well kids is gift as blessing from God, ask my self as human being as woman with my age closer to 40 and as the number my kid I had already UGH enough to make one club camp school so I’m happy and stick with I have now.

~How long you been divorce ? Quiet long, but don’t worry I’m not dry yet, I’m still can make bubble and sound OUPS!to much sorry

~ What kind a criteria guy do you like? well to many to tell, but my personalty not to picky person even I’ have side as greedy too , normally I’m dealing with what I see and I got and to the one who is available in front my nose, until it’s not work well, then I will make move.
~Why you still single….?

Bla…Bla…Bla….

~ Is dating harder for you?

I hearer, The smarter the woman get’s the more difficult for her to find a man!”

OH! Crap!!!! give me break, please…Don’t give me a such bulshit with that’s kind of pitty mind motto

PHEW!
what this wannabe “Discipler” or motoo failed to realize is generic to the art of discipling is the discipline of listening. The smarter the woman gets, the more difficult for her to find a man!

HERE THE BOTTOM LINE FOR KICKER THE ANSWER :
how else will we tap into the wellspring of a person’s soul to know “WHAT IS GOING ON IN THEIR LIFE?”

implied in this line of thinking of his joking the pitty motto some where out there is higher calling like there is;

“SMARTER ” and then there is the
“UNLUCKY person as being smart person”
and some how I can never quite get the two together….

Now , remain me as was my conversation chat with a man as best friend of mine from NJ, he was told me other day:

” My daughter is very smart. She got accepted to Cornell, I went to Cornell”

from that conversation chat, I can tell clearly how proud of him as father who had a daughter who smart… who does not?

But what happen when she is grown up…. are you gonna tell your daughter ………………………..

I don’t know your circumstances but I do know that God love us to much to allow us to take credit for Trying and Learning, that we may experience becomes smart….this is why we have brain.

Do You?

Smart is a person
Who learning
Who like to try , from those subject people becomes a person
Who has experience

My mother and other mother in this world , they smart cause every morning she creative with breakfast to serve her family.

and your wife they smart too…, they taking care the kids, family, house and even some other woman at same time do another job as her carrer beside being a mother…
Intelligence is not about how much you know. It is acknowledging what you do not know. It is about taking various bits of information and then using that information to form your own opinions, thoughts, and actions.

So…

The smarter the woman gets, the more difficult for her to find the right man
Sometimes but not all the time.. maybe because the guys gets intimidated to a by the woman’s strong personality.. …

” Naaaah…. she is to smart ! ( ugh sorry,excuse me so you excepting the dumb woman ?)

see you don’t give a change to your self and to the a woman
Ok she is smart…but what’s wrong with that?
what the reason to shake your dry bone knees and the freak hit though up your brain, then make you claim to fame as you are not deserve with smart woman or the opposite?

if the answer your doubt because ; You cant handle them?

I m sorry….

I suggest , for anticipating brain surgery, I suspect you would want to be sure the surgeon got an “A” “brain operation 101″ that’s silly right…

Smart woman also human being,
Sure beside they have side strong personality but they also have weak side too
Smart woman also have racks and ass OUPS, … sorry this nothing to do with being smart oke…but oh yeah now you like if I make comments this
Smart woman also can be dumb sometimes.(happen to me sometimes, as I m being silly, I can be dumb)

I don’t judge my intelligence by what I think I judge it by what other people think. Quite frankly, I have no idea how I rate compared to others and WHO CARE!!! but I do know, I’m smart

Now for all woman….

Is dating harder for smarter woman, has being smart woman hurt your dating life?

I think it’s … human nature to want to figure out why you are not successful at something that others appear to be successful at

You look for answers as to why you are not in a serious relationship when the rest of the world looks like they’re happily ever after.

So we tell ourselves something like, “It must be because you just happy with you are right now and your life…and when is come the right time… it will come!”

and I don’t think being “brainy” has to eclipse one’s personality…if you are not a snob about it. Brains can bring wit and compassion to a relationship…just think about it!

Nb:
On The Voice of Kartini ( 21 April )

Hidup Wanita Sedunia dan HIDUP PEREMPUAN INDONESIA

“Dengan belajar , menekunin dan mencoba kita tidak akan terpuruk di ke gelapan!”

(weleh weleh teriak nya kaya proklamasi kemerdekaan ajah, ampe male neh…. )

~ I’M on The Top Of Mountain ~

Week ago, I had bad day, I got angry, struggle with lust …During week , I was picking up pieces and starting over again, learning and trying to accepting, and yesterday morning in my time with God as I “Licked my wonds ” I offered up my prayer to God

And in the morning after finished pray, I wept through my coffee breakfast with my father.This is unsually as he knows, I was always spent time my coffee morning alone with my messy papers and sit out side,seen sight people busy in morning around inside my komplex.

like a poem…
when tongue taste the smell coffee
when the brain breakfast with paper
and the eyes can exercise with see something good (why not!!!any way,

Then he break the quiet

” What happen ?”

with taste my coffee morning in my tongue, I start to sharing the problem to him , then he give me the answer shortly.

” You are on the top of mountain “

“Alright dad, but it’s pain in ass…!” ( speaking being on top mountain, I like be on top he he but not with pain in ass, thats must another story…)

“Yep! thats cost to going be success”

Success not only need hard work or perseverance
but success needs suffer
success needs cost!

You cant just stay at home sleeping all day and dreaming then when wake up you got success!

Or
Just being busy pray in some place and hoping you got success instant shortly by magic word

Back to my father word

I’m on the top of mountain

Yes Imagine that right now
surfing the waves of the mountain mantaning balance my self in ladder of being success

and Imagine there is the wind will blow me nice (for every person who likes what you DO or write ) or…….sometimes maybe worse the wind will flash me harsh (two will hate it and three will be indifferent)

and in day time, there is sun will keep me warm or some probbaly will hit me as burnt me

and in the night …. there is moon will give me light, but a moon also can appear to dark as they gone, then you feel scared to fall down…so all those is about test.

so is that so many of us wake up in mid-live with a pit in our stomach feeling we lack meaning value or purpose?

Perhaps is it because in our drive for “SUCCESS” we have highlighted the temporal at the expense of that which is truly significant the Enternal

What prize success?

When you mention the word, “success” does having a successful career and family together with mandatory possessions like a big house and a fancy car, come to mind? If so, why? Is that society’s definition of success that we have been conditioned to believe in?

Nevertheless, it is never easy to shake off society’s version of success. How many times have you been made to feel like a failure just because you earn less than your over-achieving your friend ?

“What prize success? she doesn’t have car, she even lately difficult to pay her own rent!”

There are some who feel that only ‘losers’ think that being happy in life is of prime importance. They think it is an excuse for not making the cut.

“success” To me, being able to do what one has set out to do no matter how small or supposedly insignificant, in the eyes of others is success in its essence.

More importantly, is that our definition of success? Is that what we want? Or is that what our parents or society wants? It is really up to you to fix your own definition of success.

In fact, it is imperative that you do so to give yourself the right direction in life, for your dream and successful

So when you feel on the top of mountain

Focus on your goals, is scaling Mount Everest is what you deem as success
Once you have decided what it is that you really want in life, you would not be bothered by what others think of you. It is a liberating experience – you become free from others’ yardstick.

Nb. Yang menghancurkan ke success – an kita , itu bukan orang lain, tapi terkadang dari diri kita sendiri, Ketika kita berada di atas awan yang putih dengan nama kita yang harum dan di saat itu sebenarnya kita juga sedang di coba dengan yang di atas….dan di saat pamor kita down, orang sudah tidak percaya lagi, banyak dari mereka mencari cari kesalahan dari orang lain, atau melempar kesalahan ke orang lain atas runtuh nya ke suksess-an nya.

Let’s just admist that it’s hard to humble when you are soooo good! correct or not?

sankin good nya terkadang mereka lupa
~ Siapa yang memberi…
dan siapa pula yang akan mengambil nya kembali nanti.

Di saat kita terhujat, atau apa pun of course sebagai manusia sekuat apa pun setegar apa pun, pasti akan merasakan rasa sakit dan terpukul, sekuat apa pun iman mereka, tetap juga akan merasakan rasa sakit itu, begitu jg dengan saya. tapi di saat kita pasrah, dan menerima itu sebagai bentuk cobaan buat kita (dalam bentuk apapun dengan berpikir karna “Tuhan sayang dengan kita” memang tidak mudah untuk melakukan nya, tapi kalau kita mencoba nya,
Pasrah bukan berati kita kalah, tapi sebalik nya kita menang, menang untuk melawan hawa nafsu kita untuk tidak berbuat jahat dengan tidak menhujat kembali orang yang memberi kita sakit dan hard time.
dengan begitu rasa sakit yang tadi besar akan menghilang sedikit demi sedikit, bahkan kita akan lupa kalau kita pernah di kecewakan atau di sakitin.

GBU

Illustration Art Pic

illustrations art pic

Admit, Oh yeah! every body knows that illustration is nothing, Nothing
compared to graphic design, Nothing compared to photography.
but still, the illustration art pic’s also beautiful and for me it’s
very creative.

Since my questionable skill as an artist and I thought
many of the core indicators of creative thinking and be imaginative and
behaviour can be seen individuals who enjoy the process of learning
through experimentation and exploration.

I will be taking a break form my painting, However I will not be
neglecting my artistic outlets. Instead I will be learning graphic
design and computer illustration, to better round out my capabilities

I normally do my graphic design with Corel draw. …and most all the
time my illustration pic I use a lot’s with Adobe Photoshop,
Macromedia Dreamweaver, Macromedia Flash,Corel Draw, Macromedia
Fireworks, Adobe Illustrator, Adobe InDesign and other Graphic Tools.

illustrations-art-pic

So although i will not be doing as much painting i will continue to
expand my artistic talents into these new areas. If you have any
suggestions or requests please let me know. since this is new territory
to me im not sure yet what i am good at and what I am great at

illustrations-art-pic