PLAYING AROUND OUR IMAGINATION

For a While we may appear to defy gravity by juggling our secret inner imagination and thoughts with our external world of studied conformity to accept norms in fact some of us should get an Oscar for our acting abilty…

Most from some people think , I’m a dreaming woman, even some woman who I know was judge me as call me, “Suka Menghayal!”

well remember,” Jika kamu bisa memimpikan nya, kamu bisa mendapat kan nya!”

Yes, I have a dreams and it’s difficult to keep life simple if I have multiple passion and desire

When I’m busy with my art,drawing, painting or anything to do with my art imaginative, all I need just music in my head and sit relax on my chair!
and everything just about me and my art and I will swim deep in my own world, as my mind fly around just about my art and my imagination.
Everything just seem quite for me, sometimes even deadly quite around me, even my bald eyes, seem lazy to move around to see the right or left side.

Not because I do not care with people around me, or was busy thing around me, and YES! seem I just don’t care!
who was walk past from the left or right or even to some people who was stand up near my table, if I was in cafe.

Some people have a difference way , yes every one difference! and I have my own way difference, my mind, my body, my soul,even my feeling they have own way to soar and progress my imagination as take me and drag me to my own world, again where it’s just about me and my art!

Do you think that creative people are usually more imaginative?

I think it depends more on the person actually.
One of my sister is creative but she doesn’t exactly have an imagination
My dad isn’t creative but he has an enough active imagination.
I’m creative and I have an over-active imagination.
It depends on the individual.

Before I was kid I was wondering my self :

“Where was I have been?”

“Where is that place?”

and I spoke my self…

“what happen, if I cant come back again?”
“is there….there is a door? so I can come back?”

Well, I m not a daddy girl, but yes, he is like my best friend, I like to talk to him, and I prefer talk with some one who is from my own family, if something I do not understand or something was doubt me…my father not an artist painter,but he had good taste for art and understand about the art things, he loved to give comments and options, but what ever he give me comment and his options,he always knew, the actions it’s always in my own thought and it’s always my choice

YES!!! most all the time…. the choose is mine.

But for some reason , I do too a very few time thought about his options and follow.

and I’m always remember what he say….

I saw you and tell you there is light over there…
I teach you and guide you how to go walk over there
there is left way…
there is right way…
and there is straight way…
I will teach you my away in beginning how to go to the light
but, I m not can carry you…
you have to try go walk by your self with your feet and step
even you have to grope in the dark as you walk
then when you walk, you have own your thought and choice too
which one is the best? did you still stick with my step and my follow? until you go to the light? or you have your own choice as better way then mine, to go there more fast and safe to the light!

I don’t know, sometimes I feel, I’m right and satisfied but sometimes also I felt fail with my own choose, but I never feel regret and not blame any one and I do too trying hard too not blame my self.

According from him: every human being we all got blessing from god as he give us a talented, but every each people is difference talented and difference how they explore out and how they do with they own abilty,
some people good on other side,some other people good on the other difference side
how they good or bad, how those big or small they ability is also It depends on the individual and back to they own self again.

Jika kamu tahu cara menggalinya
dan jika kamu menggali nya dengan serius
kamu akan mengangkat bakat yang terpendam keluar…
semua itu sudah ada di dalam diri kita masing masing, dan kembali lagi kepada diri kita sendiri, bagaimana cara kita mengunakan nya dan menggali nya.

Yes, as My self, I thanks full to God…
I know how to explore out my talented
I know how to explore out my imagination
and I know how to drag my self and mind to feel it my imaginations
so I can sense and feel like, I was go deep to my own world imagination.

he said :

“That because you was enjoying what you do and you enjoying your drawing and you respect full your imagination, so you can feel and sense it’s almost like real that you can be buried your self in your own world art and imagination

and he remain me again, for some people who is not trust they self and to they own feeling and sense, most they just think as weird with they own imagination, even some will felt scared think as worry other people will think Crazy and for people who is never respect with they own talented or they imagination most people who is never felt satisfaction with they own gift and with what they do, never felt satisfy with they own attainment.

“What happen,If I was to deep with my mind and my imagination and buried my self there and never come back?”
and there is ….no door there…?

my father was just giving me a big smile and I can remember that, he was just like a little laugh like I was made funny with my questions.

” As your art imaginative and painting ,The one who can control your mind and your imagination, it’s you… Your self!

he say:
When we imagination something, that also we try creative something in our mind and fantasy…
and your drawing your imaginative it’s like a movie, and think like as a movie
you creative that’s imaginative and imagination as you are the sutradara…
you creative that story as you put scenario on your mind as what will be like your fantasy and those imaginative as your wish…
and sometimes, you also can be the actor for your imagination your imaginative art or drawing fantasy.

Everything on your hands and your mind
when you think is enough , you will stop
and you don’t need a door
the key in your hands
you can make bad as you want that imagination as you wish…
you can buried your self deep in there…
you can make it good or
even you can ruin bad that your imagination
it’s yours… you the one who control that!

You can buried your self as you wish as long you want
and for some people who never come back again
that because…
they living in they own fantasy, those people who is cant accept and cant make a discriminate between real life and fantasy.

Any way, after that conversation with my father was make me feel better and I never doubt and worry any more, I was keep drawing and enjoying ever momment my own world when I was drawing…writing even when do with my art pics.

What do you think our world would be like without creative people in it, your opinions and thoughts?

I wouldn’t exactly be having this write and conversation about my art without the creativity of Mr. Gates.
But we need a balance in life – some creative some not. That’s the way I see it.

Np: All Those, it’s my art, from my hard work, and DISCIPLINE and FAITH. maybe for some people think is crazy or nothing, but for me, it’s everything and I’m satisfied at least I have been try to make it happen from one of my other dream art.
and I would like to say thank you for all the website I have been joint to all my friends who has in my friends list and any where, who support me.
Thank You

Learning To wait

Your prayers seem to go unanswered?
evidence of God’s working is scarce
you and fellow – belivers languish
while the Godless appers to flourish

then sometime we ask our self when we are in doubt
“is this God’s cruel joke?
or could there be a divine reason behind our sens of abandom ment?

or

we to learning to wait and patient.

Desperately, helplessly, longingly
I Cried :

Waiting for the answer

I pled and wept for a clue to my fate

“God, I need the answers, I need to know why! is your hand shortened?
or have you not heard?

by faith I have asked and am claming your word

“My future and all to which I can relate hangs in the balance and you tell me to wait?

I’m needing a “Yes” a go head sign or even a “No” to which I can resign.
“And God you promised that if we believe we need but to ask and we shall receive,

God I have been asking and this is my cry :

I’m weary of asking and I need reply!”

Learning to wait

I Could give you sign,

I could shake the heaven and draken the sun,
I could raise the idea and cause the mountain to ruin
all you asked me I could give and pleased you would be,
you would have what you want but, you wouldn’t know me,

you wouldn’t know the depth of my love for each saint
you would not know the power that I give to the faint
You would not learn to see through the clouds of despair
You would not learn to trust just by knowing I’m there
You would not know the joy of resting in me
when darkness and silence were all you can see

You would never experience that fullness of love as the peace of my spirit descends like a dove
You would know that I live and save…(for start)
but you would not know the depth of the beat of my heart

The glow of my comfort late into the night
the faith that i give when you walj with out sight
the depth that’s beyond getting just
what you asked of an infinite God
who make what you have last

You would never know should your pain quickly flee
what it means that my grace is sufficient for thee
“Yes your dreams for your loved
one over night would come true
but Oh the loss! if I lost what
I’m doing in you!

so be silent…and in time,you will see greatest of gifts is to get to know me and through oft may my answers seem terribly late my most precious answer of all is still “Wait” when it’s the time….it will come!

The smarter the woman gets, the more difficult for her to find a man!

” A Popular BUZZ word bandied about in live circle these days is “AVAILABLE”
the question is often asked ” Are you available ?“

Perhaps we have had the experience of finding ourselves attracted toward some one of the opposite sex… some one special… some one who available some one who will accept us the way as we are.

in recently months a number of my personal guy friend, was been kechap to me by phone or just trade short massage as trying to getting to know with me

Well I’m single …Available (damn Julia…SELF PROMOTION , well nothing wrong sometimes we need that… Well Let’s face it! we live in a society where the powerful, the beautiful and the bright usually get the recognition, the accolades and the promotions it’s pride – driven world of self that takes on at least of expression SELF PROMOTION - read my other blog “Pimp your self before they pimp you”)

Most the first time a man meet with me, mostly they talk to me about :

~ Are you seeing any one? NO

~ What do you for your life ? Artist painter and writer

~ How many kids you got? some, well I was to busy

~ Did you think, still want another kid?Well kids is gift as blessing from God, ask my self as human being as woman with my age closer to 40 and as the number my kid I had already UGH enough to make one club camp school so I’m happy and stick with I have now.

~How long you been divorce ? Quiet long, but don’t worry I’m not dry yet, I’m still can make bubble and sound OUPS!to much sorry

~ What kind a criteria guy do you like? well to many to tell, but my personalty not to picky person even I’ have side as greedy too , normally I’m dealing with what I see and I got and to the one who is available in front my nose, until it’s not work well, then I will make move.
~Why you still single….?

Bla…Bla…Bla….

~ Is dating harder for you?

I hearer, The smarter the woman get’s the more difficult for her to find a man!”

OH! Crap!!!! give me break, please…Don’t give me a such bulshit with that’s kind of pitty mind motto

PHEW!
what this wannabe “Discipler” or motoo failed to realize is generic to the art of discipling is the discipline of listening. The smarter the woman gets, the more difficult for her to find a man!

HERE THE BOTTOM LINE FOR KICKER THE ANSWER :
how else will we tap into the wellspring of a person’s soul to know “WHAT IS GOING ON IN THEIR LIFE?”

implied in this line of thinking of his joking the pitty motto some where out there is higher calling like there is;

“SMARTER ” and then there is the
“UNLUCKY person as being smart person”
and some how I can never quite get the two together….

Now , remain me as was my conversation chat with a man as best friend of mine from NJ, he was told me other day:

” My daughter is very smart. She got accepted to Cornell, I went to Cornell”

from that conversation chat, I can tell clearly how proud of him as father who had a daughter who smart… who does not?

But what happen when she is grown up…. are you gonna tell your daughter ………………………..

I don’t know your circumstances but I do know that God love us to much to allow us to take credit for Trying and Learning, that we may experience becomes smart….this is why we have brain.

Do You?

Smart is a person
Who learning
Who like to try , from those subject people becomes a person
Who has experience

My mother and other mother in this world , they smart cause every morning she creative with breakfast to serve her family.

and your wife they smart too…, they taking care the kids, family, house and even some other woman at same time do another job as her carrer beside being a mother…
Intelligence is not about how much you know. It is acknowledging what you do not know. It is about taking various bits of information and then using that information to form your own opinions, thoughts, and actions.

So…

The smarter the woman gets, the more difficult for her to find the right man
Sometimes but not all the time.. maybe because the guys gets intimidated to a by the woman’s strong personality.. …

” Naaaah…. she is to smart ! ( ugh sorry,excuse me so you excepting the dumb woman ?)

see you don’t give a change to your self and to the a woman
Ok she is smart…but what’s wrong with that?
what the reason to shake your dry bone knees and the freak hit though up your brain, then make you claim to fame as you are not deserve with smart woman or the opposite?

if the answer your doubt because ; You cant handle them?

I m sorry….

I suggest , for anticipating brain surgery, I suspect you would want to be sure the surgeon got an “A” “brain operation 101″ that’s silly right…

Smart woman also human being,
Sure beside they have side strong personality but they also have weak side too
Smart woman also have racks and ass OUPS, … sorry this nothing to do with being smart oke…but oh yeah now you like if I make comments this
Smart woman also can be dumb sometimes.(happen to me sometimes, as I m being silly, I can be dumb)

I don’t judge my intelligence by what I think I judge it by what other people think. Quite frankly, I have no idea how I rate compared to others and WHO CARE!!! but I do know, I’m smart

Now for all woman….

Is dating harder for smarter woman, has being smart woman hurt your dating life?

I think it’s … human nature to want to figure out why you are not successful at something that others appear to be successful at

You look for answers as to why you are not in a serious relationship when the rest of the world looks like they’re happily ever after.

So we tell ourselves something like, “It must be because you just happy with you are right now and your life…and when is come the right time… it will come!”

and I don’t think being “brainy” has to eclipse one’s personality…if you are not a snob about it. Brains can bring wit and compassion to a relationship…just think about it!

Nb:
On The Voice of Kartini ( 21 April )

Hidup Wanita Sedunia dan HIDUP PEREMPUAN INDONESIA

“Dengan belajar , menekunin dan mencoba kita tidak akan terpuruk di ke gelapan!”

(weleh weleh teriak nya kaya proklamasi kemerdekaan ajah, ampe male neh…. )

~ I’M on The Top Of Mountain ~

Week ago, I had bad day, I got angry, struggle with lust …During week , I was picking up pieces and starting over again, learning and trying to accepting, and yesterday morning in my time with God as I “Licked my wonds ” I offered up my prayer to God

And in the morning after finished pray, I wept through my coffee breakfast with my father.This is unsually as he knows, I was always spent time my coffee morning alone with my messy papers and sit out side,seen sight people busy in morning around inside my komplex.

like a poem…
when tongue taste the smell coffee
when the brain breakfast with paper
and the eyes can exercise with see something good (why not!!!any way,

Then he break the quiet

” What happen ?”

with taste my coffee morning in my tongue, I start to sharing the problem to him , then he give me the answer shortly.

” You are on the top of mountain “

“Alright dad, but it’s pain in ass…!” ( speaking being on top mountain, I like be on top he he but not with pain in ass, thats must another story…)

“Yep! thats cost to going be success”

Success not only need hard work or perseverance
but success needs suffer
success needs cost!

You cant just stay at home sleeping all day and dreaming then when wake up you got success!

Or
Just being busy pray in some place and hoping you got success instant shortly by magic word

Back to my father word

I’m on the top of mountain

Yes Imagine that right now
surfing the waves of the mountain mantaning balance my self in ladder of being success

and Imagine there is the wind will blow me nice (for every person who likes what you DO or write ) or…….sometimes maybe worse the wind will flash me harsh (two will hate it and three will be indifferent)

and in day time, there is sun will keep me warm or some probbaly will hit me as burnt me

and in the night …. there is moon will give me light, but a moon also can appear to dark as they gone, then you feel scared to fall down…so all those is about test.

so is that so many of us wake up in mid-live with a pit in our stomach feeling we lack meaning value or purpose?

Perhaps is it because in our drive for “SUCCESS” we have highlighted the temporal at the expense of that which is truly significant the Enternal

What prize success?

When you mention the word, “success” does having a successful career and family together with mandatory possessions like a big house and a fancy car, come to mind? If so, why? Is that society’s definition of success that we have been conditioned to believe in?

Nevertheless, it is never easy to shake off society’s version of success. How many times have you been made to feel like a failure just because you earn less than your over-achieving your friend ?

“What prize success? she doesn’t have car, she even lately difficult to pay her own rent!”

There are some who feel that only ‘losers’ think that being happy in life is of prime importance. They think it is an excuse for not making the cut.

“success” To me, being able to do what one has set out to do no matter how small or supposedly insignificant, in the eyes of others is success in its essence.

More importantly, is that our definition of success? Is that what we want? Or is that what our parents or society wants? It is really up to you to fix your own definition of success.

In fact, it is imperative that you do so to give yourself the right direction in life, for your dream and successful

So when you feel on the top of mountain

Focus on your goals, is scaling Mount Everest is what you deem as success
Once you have decided what it is that you really want in life, you would not be bothered by what others think of you. It is a liberating experience – you become free from others’ yardstick.

Nb. Yang menghancurkan ke success – an kita , itu bukan orang lain, tapi terkadang dari diri kita sendiri, Ketika kita berada di atas awan yang putih dengan nama kita yang harum dan di saat itu sebenarnya kita juga sedang di coba dengan yang di atas….dan di saat pamor kita down, orang sudah tidak percaya lagi, banyak dari mereka mencari cari kesalahan dari orang lain, atau melempar kesalahan ke orang lain atas runtuh nya ke suksess-an nya.

Let’s just admist that it’s hard to humble when you are soooo good! correct or not?

sankin good nya terkadang mereka lupa
~ Siapa yang memberi…
dan siapa pula yang akan mengambil nya kembali nanti.

Di saat kita terhujat, atau apa pun of course sebagai manusia sekuat apa pun setegar apa pun, pasti akan merasakan rasa sakit dan terpukul, sekuat apa pun iman mereka, tetap juga akan merasakan rasa sakit itu, begitu jg dengan saya. tapi di saat kita pasrah, dan menerima itu sebagai bentuk cobaan buat kita (dalam bentuk apapun dengan berpikir karna “Tuhan sayang dengan kita” memang tidak mudah untuk melakukan nya, tapi kalau kita mencoba nya,
Pasrah bukan berati kita kalah, tapi sebalik nya kita menang, menang untuk melawan hawa nafsu kita untuk tidak berbuat jahat dengan tidak menhujat kembali orang yang memberi kita sakit dan hard time.
dengan begitu rasa sakit yang tadi besar akan menghilang sedikit demi sedikit, bahkan kita akan lupa kalau kita pernah di kecewakan atau di sakitin.

GBU

~ The Birth a Vision of Leader ~

“Aim at nothing and you are sure to hit it”

Sure you are something …. sweetie
you just don’t give a credit to your self, that you know something and you can do.

Sometimes my friend or people who is not knowing me well, will judge me as I’m Dom person, even some of woman who I know was judge me as not happy word as told other woman as I’m the person who like to take control people or friend!

Sometimes yes I realize too, YES!forgive me... they way I’m talk and act sometimes I’m feel like as leader, but I never thinking want be

leader. I even never ever have thought want to control some people or even my owns friends. I do not want Dom any one either.

but if they are my truelly friend who know me well, they will understand me, I guess I’m just a person who like telling straight what I would like to do and what I know… and what I want ! I’ m not haste either to listen,learning and follow the advice or opinion from other people or friend.

I’m just think, why we need to wait until some one stand up and saying they have the idea or advice, if you also have your own idea or your opinion, why not let them know your idea,

Hey….if ya got it, FLAUNT IT! Right? cause if you don’t toot your own horn idea, who will?

Back in my child memory
like my father was ask before when I was kid, when we went out to restaurant as took all family to eat.

“What do you like to eat? he ask my mom…
“I don’t know” she say that probably because to many choice of menu make her confused

“What do you like to eat?” also he ask one by one to his kids. all give same answer…
” I don’t know dad, up to you…”
then he was just give us smile and saying

“For just your own food and for you stomach, you don’t have a passion or desire to think, and not even have idea, what will be make it you guys happy to eat… ”

“How you gonna have an idea and desire, what would like to be on the future? are you have desire being a doctor? or an artist?”

Leader! isn’t that the hot word today?

The tearm “Leader or Leadership” is kinda titillates your ego, doesn’t it?
Intresting! is it not that….but spoke profusely on Servanthood

Every human being we are born as leader!
Anyone can be a leader, even if the only person they’re leading is themselves.
every person we are leader for the responsibility our things;

I m leader for my self

I m responsibility for my self for anything what I need , I do and things

I m leader for my kids as parents

I m leader for my self as wife

I m responsibility for taking care my husband and kids
I m leader for my lover…
then more and more….and more….

Effective leaders will be servants who have attracted a following because of their passion, vision, integrity and love for people, we will make effort to develop this kind of leader

But you can’t become a leader just by saying you are, Leadership needs to be worked at.

” I want chicken Gordon blue!”

You know what you want
you know the idea and plans what you like to eat
you know what a passion will make your stomach happy to eat
you ask for… then
you eat that meal

in other word…
you know what you want
you have a passion
you know the idea
you got the plans
you let them know as share your plan
you do it and…
prove it your vision

If you don’t they will not believe you have anything to contribute in a conversations

There are a lot of people out there proclaiming how good they are …. (talk is cheap)but few actually deliver the goods

President Lydon Jonhson keep a sign on his wall

” You Ain’t learning nothing when you’re doing all the talking”

isn’t there an object lesson in the fact that God gave us one mouth and two ears (that’s for man actually, woman more lucky blessing got 2 mouth ha ha ha )

“let the wise listen and add to their learning…..

Leader To Be Human is To Be Wounded

The real qualities of leader are to be found in those who are willing to suffer for the sake of objectives great enough to demand their whole hearted obedience.

Leader also human being
Leader is not Dom
can be wounded
can be wrong too

if you motives in pursuing leader are notless than a desire intimacy with Dom you are sadly on the wrong track

Now…

which rung of corperate leader you are on?

~ Greedy control over your resource ?
or

~ As you a mature leader and gain in stature are you still willing to learn from the most humble of source?

listen with the intent to understand
Value the other person and their input.

So even if we haven’t yet fully dealt with the question of whether leaders are born or can be made, let’s look at some of the qualities needed from a leader.

Yes! I’m leader :

1.I have plans

~ I Built
~ I made
~ I Bought
~ I Owned
~ I amassed

2. I have a vision.

3. I share my vision

4. I Takes charge.

5. I’m inspires through example.

And finally, I becomes my self as my personal
the brief auto biography of one such a leader person.

~ I’M Gonna Be Like You ~

While I was growing up, my father traveling a lot’s on his duty in marines
he left my mom often sometimes was take quiet long enough for being month and month, but he never feel tired to send us a card while he was traveling

my father only showed up once or twice at any of my school or extra curricular activities I was about in the first year junior school, playing on Volly ball team

there was my father in the stand!
still wear his uniform after take couple month traveling disappear with his ship

“Where you been ?” I was screaming happy to see him

“I had been traveling…”

Now let’s skip my story…

One man was spoke to his friend at bar while he spent his happy hour and seeing sight give those two pear his ball eyes an happy hour with any pleasure around an happy hour ass available who walk pass by ( he he he…. that’s will another next story sorry, well get a long with my joke hehheeh oke just skip that)

“My child turned ten just other day he said!”
“Thanks for the ball Dad
“C’mon let’s play, can you teach me to throw?”
I said “Not today! I got a lot’s to do”
his son said “That’s OK”
and he walked way but his smile never dimmed
he said ” I’m gonna be like him, yeah… you know I’m gonna be like him!”

Then after couple years….

“I have long since retired, my son’s move away, I called him just other day.
I said ” I would like to see you if you don’t mind?”
He said ” I would to Dad! if I could fine the time, you see.

the new job’s a hassle and the kids have the flue, but it’s sure nice talking to you Dad, it’s been sure nice talkin’ to you.
and as I hang up the phone, it occurred to me

“he grown up just like me, my boy was just like me”
last week while I was visit my friend at some part east Jakarta, she took me to other her neighbor for talking about her rent room.

” BERENGSEK!!!! Elo monyet!!!”

a girl about 14 year old was screaming to her brother in other room
then the woman was excuse and left us for checking her kids.

“MONYET LOE! berisik ada tamu tahu!!!”

Alright in other word, she screaming back to her own kids with use same bad words as her daughter was screaming about, to control her kids.

in reflecting back, I remember of the pharse….

“The fruit never fall/drop far from the tree “

and the lyric Harry Chapin cat’s in the cradle :

A child arrived just the other day
they come to the world in the usual way
but there were planes to catch and bills to pay
they learned to walk while we was way
they learned to talk while we was show them way
and they was talking fore
we knew it and as they grow they said

” I’m gonna be like you!”

Parents judging by your current investment into the lives of your clan, are you pleased with the reality that some day they are in fact

” Gonna be like you?”

The Power Of Words!

“Jablay”
( in other words something not nice to saying for woman)
I hear this word on my ears yesterday night as one of girl on cafe was calling me as Jablay behind my back.

“Does she think I’m a Jablay?”

And with that I was entered a night determined to do something about her judge as talk about The Power of words

Every call you kid “Stupid?” or “Lazy”? or ever call your friend or some one else “Dog, Monkey or Big Guy ?”

or ever call your GF “Stupid Bitch?” as she was in bad mood or was doing not right?
or ever call you BF ” ASSHOLE?” hhehehehhe …… ( why suddenly I get addict with word asshole on every my blog never mind !)

or ever call people with even with more worse words? or scold them with “Can’t you ever do anything right?”
GUESS WHAT?
your words becomes self – fulfilling prophecies.

When I was tennager one of my friend said to me ” I don’t trust you” and from that day on I determined to give her reason not to trust me and I becomes a juvenile delinquent Again! The Power of words!

See I’m not prefect either
even sometimes I’m still use the power of words as I was feel unscured or feel in bad mood
“Can you do something for your life reather just bothering some one life?” hehhehheh
I’m sorry and I hope they forgive me.

Instead of calling the kid “Stupid”
why don’t you grab him (or her) by the shoulders and say
“wow, you are something!
Am I ever proud of you! what a privelege it is for me to be your parents!”
then said I love you or mama/papa sayang kamu!

Then the instead of calling your gf/bf “Stupid bitch” or “asshole “
“why don’t you grab her ass as like you feel ever really loved a woman
“wow you are something!”
Hmmmm…. baby/honey…. am I ever told you !
You have a great……..great……….A

HOLD ON…. HOLD ON …now she turn around (((((((((((SLAP!!!!!))))))))))))))))

OUPS! thats not work! hehhehe wrong massage on the wrong time (blame the PMS then )
but for some other woman it will work, don’t worry keep try LMOA

so let’s start over again
Then the instead of calling your gf/bf Stupid bitch or asshole
“why don’t you grab her by holding her and give her nice hug as like you feel really loved a woman
“wow you are something!”
hmmmmmm…..
“Am I ever told you, That I love you so much!
what a lucky it is for me to be your gf/bf

And the instead of calling people as bad words as being harshness
why don’t just saying as friendly words even that just simple words as simple hello…
“hi Mrs Ismet”
“hi Mr Chris”
‘Hi Dude or babe….”

Believe me being friendly will make your inner beauty come up cause when you say something nice to people as try make friendship “Hello” ( silaturahmi)
your face show up the happiness as your lips crack up as smile as saying “hello or hi or hai”
then your inner beauty come up that also helping keeping you young! but you have to say with really mean from your heart not saying because you want to impress some else (or basa basi)

and also good cause the words as saying hello as friendly to people some one you know this is also remain them that we care with them and we love them
cause they are there Right!

back to the Power of Words in stating :
“The tongue has the power of life and death”

So do not let unwhole some talk come out of your mouth but only what is help full for building other up according to their needs!

And when the last time you used the power of words to build up your spouse
with a kind word or a note of encouragament or an employee? or a coleague? or one of your kids!

People Can Change !

People can change, yes cause we are
People not only can change but People sometimes must be change …

YES! it’s true people can change

Before I’ m always forget or ignore it about the principle, the basic principle of being grown and life as a human being : Change

One popular saying that’s always struck me as particularly pity and harmful is, “People don’t change.”

I m not perfect either sometimes very often too I realize I keeping rained personality traits as being ego my self, as I use the words

“No! I cant help, I can’t change my self! “

Saying people can’t change is the same as saying people can’t learn.
When you learn something new that knowledge fundamentally changes you.
Each piece of information adds to your personal database creating
additional resources to draw on when interacting with the outside
world. We face the same temptations to engage in negative behavior,
but we also build a body of experience that tells us the reward isn’t
worth the penalty.

In a sense we are always changing and always staying the same. When I compare my self of today with my self from a few years ago or when I was kid , I observe that I’m the same but more.I’m the same in how I think and process information but experience has changed the way I interpret everything. Every day adds a new layer of character, I learning and learning,guess that what we should do and try. Learning and change!

Is weird right, I can express my self easy for anything, drawing, writing, poem and also I can easy express my self as my talk to much sometimes with friends as chat chit, but hard for me when I was kid to express the feeling as to say :

“I love you or I love you too..with words, even I do know love them. see I m not perfect!

I thought I will never change and I can’t change….

Now! everything has change
I’m very easy to express my self as express my feeling with words and
face it, if I love some one or care to people even they are not my
family, I wont haste to let them know, with words but really mean it, as I care with them…

” Aku Cinta Kamu”
“I Love You”

” Aku Sayang kamu “

” I Care about You” or

“WOW he got nice ass……… ”

OUPS sorry that’s difference express ” well cant help my bad habbit ! alright just forget it about that words.

Any way!

People do change. We make every decision for the first time with no obligation to the past. If we control anything, we control our own thoughts and behavior. If can improve anything, it should be
ourselves.

Is your primary desire in life to be satisfied or to be happy ?

Is your primary desire in life to be satisfied or to be happy ?

God has promised to supply ALL our needs, That’s what worries me ,because his idea of “NEEDS” may not square with my idea of “WANTS”

So, I took a moment my morning, Get cancer with burnt my cigarrete on my fingers ( shit that bad joke ) and thanks God for smell a cup of my coffee and my thought flying around in my quiet room.

I wonder if our need for life has something to do with our desire to have more then one days or one whole life provision at a time?

he said allowed them to pick up only one day’s provosion at a time , if they attempted more they wanna spoil.

most people problem is that their not only want “THING” and covering and of choice but also a full menu picky of choice as to what kind of want or need and covering…

so let’s make list of your idea of want or desire and what your list?

My satisfied:

~ I want a sexy man and handsome guy with big arms hehheh

~ I want to keep my apartement ( always)

~ I want my daughter with me

~ I want my job and get high sallery

~ Bla….

~ Bla…

~ and bla…

My Happiness:

~ I want a man who I love and a man who love me

~ I just want live and have a place

~ I want see good life for my daughter

~ Well I just want have a job and do something for life

~ Bla…

~ Bla…

~ and bla…

Obviously God was dealing with their greed and teaching them to trust him one day at a time, as stop to much complaning about life

well it’s hard ya…
special when I’m wake up morning, I m out off my coffee or when need it and really need it… something,something so bad….. ugh! hehheh Damn I’m out off CDM ha ha ha that even more worse ( Ok this just for my secret