~ CHOOSING BETWEEN THE WAYA OF OUR THINK OR THE WAYS OF OUR NEED ~

A particular sporting goods company only hires salesmen who are six feet or more in height ( it’s make sense?)

But if you put a motive look and appreance at people more important for your relationship that’s unthinkable.

As I write my mind races to (thought ) “BROKENESS” are being used of God to IMPACT some of the toughes on the (earth) relationship with appearance is more important then…quality and personality.

Brokenness is the product of a person who has come to face to face with….

~ Look down on others as Compare them selves with other and feel deserving of honor

~ Don’t think they have anything to repent of

~ Wait for other to come and ask for forgiveness and Are Quik to blame others
~ Are defensive when critized

~ Are wounded when others are promoted and they are over looked

~ Claim their Right

~ Can’t accept personal responsibility

~ Desire to be served

UNBROKENESS

~ Accepting indifference

~ Are willing to be open /transparent with others

~ Are Quick to admit failure and to seek forgiveness

~ Are humbled by how much they have to learn

~ Rejoice when others are lifted up

~ Are willing to stand to the right to be rights

~ Can see where they were wrong

~ Desire to promote and comment others

From the second floor of my house, I m looking out over the balcony on early afternoon as the sun was almost disappear it’s way through the clouds, in my writing on afternoon I was struck with the commen and my wondering….

What a difference between taller and shorter when is come to relationship?

When in the dark
we will all same color…

When in lay in bed
we will be same size…

WHAT? are you excepting a more taller so he/her legs more longger so can make full on side of your bed or even longger so the feet can hang over down to side a bed?

OMG!!!

Have spoil fun with giraffe then !

IMPACT! isn’t the size effect we are to have with relationship but the IMPACT is to be primarily through the power of the quality and personality.

Bigger is useless if they don’t have good quality
Smaller even worse if they don’t have good quality

Look like when you buy a chocolate at store, there are many look so delicus , very tempting smell ( Now I’m driping my saliva while write and imagine that hehhehe grab me a tissyu plz hhehhehh )

Not only the smell of chocolate who will teasing your nose, but the package and the size also will tempting us, correct or not?well that’s company creative talented to try make a produsen happy with a lot’s of choosing

Sure when our eyes gaze to the bigger size…we will knock to looked at that one first ( for other case I’m not denying ) to comper.

Then you will pick up one , and probably you will say ;

” Oh my, longger…Bigger…Oh yes Smell good …Uhhhhh…..Uhhhhh….”
We felt really aroused, it went deeper and deeper the smell teasing the nose, we began getting really excited and we began to moan…..Ohh yeah……our nose began to groan, a bit going up…. , again a bit harder up the smell obsess the nose, our mouth start waters,the teasing smell chocolate was erotic, now seriously we talking about chocolate right?

And mean time your hand while busy with feeling, sense that size and even weighing, then the other hand checking a smaller package of chocolate, even we see already the package was smaller , sometimes our brain still wondering as sending message to our nose to smelling the chocolate flavour.

“oooooh Yes…this one also smell good hmmmm….” ( Sweet smell across my nose,heart pumping hard, your blood start run fast goes to your head and sending massage to your brain,,,for wondering)

“How much this…?”

When you check the price a smaller package of the chocolate….
Your heart even pumping more harder and your brain not just giving or sending message but directly to Yelling hehheheh


“Damn!!!! this company, trying to rape my wallet? or what?”

SMALLER BUT EXPENSIVE….( compare to other big package chocolate)
That’s because the quality,the answer is Quality of the product.

I don’t say Taller isn’t Good
I don’t say Bigger isn’t Good
I don’t say a smaller always good either.

Besar atau tinggi juga percuma kalau isinya kosong

So …if you tend to buy a chocolate when it’s comes to maintaining relationship standards why not CAREFULLLY consinder the Quality is the best rather then a package or size.

Quality is more longger, Not easy ruin by the age
ever hear some people give comment

“he is old man but he got quality man!”
“She is old lady but she have a huge quality…….

~ Choosing the ways of our think ~

Freedom of the choice how we love it ,It’s true… we have a freedom to choice our need or our think, even for our words to spelling or to expression our self to other people , Now I m coming with my write about one of guy who left words on his wall ( brokenness)

” EVEN WE DON’T HAVE MONEY WE STILL CAN HAVE TALL WOMAN ” Well very very pessimist motto!
is like a patriot when they when to war

” DON’t GIVE UP, even we don’t have bullet we still can shoot enmy with our gun!”

How is this possible ?

The Question is :

” How you shoot them if your Gun doesn’t have a BULLET?”

You mean you can used your flash fart or your balls, as trade for your empty bullet for fire your gun?

The patriot when they say don’t have bullet can still shoot enemy, probably they use a second tool, as knife or even maybe ROCK

O..oh oh… hope you don’t think a rock is second a choose to have a tall woman

If you say Not then what?

BY MAGIC WORDS?

” Oh sweety you got sexy long leg ( GUBRAX!!!!! she fall down then when she wake up, Oh oh I m fall in love with you )

Or stand BY LUCKY?

Well in this word as luck, I respect to people who believe with lucky, as we are human, we have a freedom to what we believe indifference but as my self , I don’t believe with luck, but I do believe with miracle, miracle is come from God.lucky is other second words as something you excepting coming good as you don’t do anything… it’s should be not call luck but is lazy.

Back again to the Quality

“With our QUALITY we can have a chance to have a taller and even any kind of side of woman, even we don’t have money!”

That’s is the good motto ; ….110% I Agree!

And remember …Like it or Not
woman/girl also have a freedom of choice how they love it!

Some woman like a man/guy
with gun with a lot bullet

Some woman like a man/guy
with gun with out bullet
but they have a quality and good personality

Some even like a man/guy
NO GUN but got a plenty of bullet

and some…woman
they have own special choose.

~ Choosing the ways of our need ~

“EVEN WE DON’T HAVE MONEY,WE STILL HAVE A RIGHT TO HAVE AND DATE A TALLER AND SEXY GIRLS” ( Claim To Right ) “Oh yeah!!! You will, You Should, I Support you on this words!”

Every one , You and I, we all have a right and deserve

I have a right and deserve to have a sexy man with big shoulder, strong arms, nice ass, big tank, ( is that to much?) never mind.

Let’s back a little bit to oldest my blog

When some people was wondering and DOUBT about my knowledge about my ART and my ability was an negative thought …..bla..bla…(next time maybe my last name will change as bla bla..)

like other human being , I was run to the circles screaming and shout ..CLAIM to my RIGHT

” I HAVE MY RIGHT! THEY CAN’T DO THAT TO ME!”

We don’t have to prove or Claim to our right to any one, BUT the best way is we can STAND in our right.

I work hard, Learning, TRYING, and Faith … Do because of me

Let’s imagine our RIGHT is like FLAG

So the flag, either is cheap G.string,Expensive G.string,Ugly boxer or Cute Boxer ( ugh is that mean cute as got window in middle ? QUIET Julia!!!..Oke no comment on this)in other words about all those , whatever your background, level, low , high,Color and race we all have a right.

Then we need our flag stand.

As this, used your self to stand for your flag and your flag is depending to your self, when fall down, you need to stand up again…( you try hard, grab a chance the best you can and try and faith ) if you not be bother, then let’s just fall down…IGNORE IT.

Then we need a wind
to support our flag to FLAUNT

~ Personalty

~ Quality

~ Attitude

~ more and more …

Now your motto with your RIGHT will be 110% work good.

“Without money, we still have right to date Tall sexy girls”

Now,Reminds me of my old friend, some woman who I know has inner beauty inside, she is beautiful , smart, taller enough, and her boy friend excuse me on this I’m not trying to judge people appearance, he is short, Ok then I m sorry…let’s say just ugly as most her friends will wondering

Why she stick with him? hmmmm he even not kind guy who have “things” to make his woman happy ( CLING2 and BLING2)

I ask her,

she say :

“You know.. you could meet someone, and first time meet, you not attracted to person, but after sometimes of that persons company, you become more and more attracted to him/her.. Because, you got to know the person from inside… (personality) and as say, beauty is from within out”

“The one thing I really like about him, beside he got good personality, he is kind of guy , who can easy make living in any place even that’s not big thing“

Quality doesn’t mean about a person who can make a billion money.

So that’s one of quality from other example quality and every one has a difference view about the quality people and every woman/man has a difference view about the quality of the criteria their partner, and some people even makes a numb about the quality it should take as the value to their partner.

Yes, its true in reality, the first thing we look for is the looks. we always looking for a partner who is beautiful and hot.

” Whats wrong with him? he is sexy, wow 6 pack bo, handsome man… I see you was seem happy and proud when out with him to clubbing?”

“Yeah he only good for being friend, but he is not core shaker!”

If only go for appearance, don’t you think it would become boring after a while, if the person has no personality and quality to keep you interested ?

It is certainly nice to keep your appearance up but what would looking good do you if you couldn’t carry on a conversation. Personality and quality is greatly important and as I mentioned it is always good to keep up your
appearance to what you like.

Building of quality and personality in a relationship will improve the connection and deep love you have with your partner. Many people are unsure how to build the quality and personality and there are misconceptions about it as well

1. We want you to APPROACH them with intergrity… that is :

~ We don’t want you come with a hidden agenda

~ We do want you to respect us as accepting who we are , SHORT, TALLER …BIG…SKINNY

2. We want to be able to TRUST you and feel safe with you on relationship
( It’s same as you buy chocolate, if you don’t trust the comany made the chocolate , you wont buy that )

~ Don’t violate their confidence
~ Demonstrate compassion and empathy at their anguish and pain ( this call CURHAT — Listening as we know most all the time, relationship is starting with sharing, happiness, story even pain )

3. WE want a shared purpose for the relationship mutually agree as to the direction the relations should take.

~ Friendship/relationship and mutual accountability…..

You know, sometimes people just want say anything, anything to expression either they feel or just the way they like to expose how is the feeling inside of them, it’s fine sometimes is better we let it out rather than you keep inside your self….

Again I seen on another one of guy putting a words on his wall ( with other language) as saying :

” I CALLED MY SELF TO FISH FOR MEAN “
” Woman/girl is like a fish , we just need big decoys, then we can catch them easy!”

Ugh….Ugh….
Well MR.FISHERMAN…. I would like to say Nah, I’m disagree for some reason not! but Ok, I’m type of woman who open minded person I DO, (sometimes hehehhe… come on, I cant be prefect I can be negative too sometimes, but I’m always try dealing with my positive way ) I would take those words on top my table as positive way.

” Woman/girl is like a fish , we just need big decoys, then we can catch them very easy!”

I guess the answer (DECOYS) all depends upon whom you been looking (Catching)

to supply your daily need?
to supply they daily need?

to supply your daily think ?
to supply they daily think ?

or both what they need or what they think ?

Did you follow?

let’s talking about the FISH and MR.FISHERMAN.

My father he is not fisherman catch fish, but he does enjoying fishing, and being couple years many people around call him as “Pak ikan” , since his taking care all the fisherman and the ships of fisherman around area our leave (actually big area but is not necessary to mentions here,never mind)

He is not fisherman but he is understand about fisherman.

He say, “Pemancing sejati mereka tidak hanya tahu tentang developed fishing strategis and tactics tapi mereka juga tahu kapan dan waktu yang tepat untuk memancing”

Fisherman are characterized by singleness of purpose they are focused and concentrated on the task at hand (talented and quality). (so sebesar apapun your DECOY, jika kamu tidak focused and concentrated at your hand… you probably will miss it )

True fisherman don’t use line “you should have seen the one that got away” they with out commenting just hold up their full stringers like wise, fishers of man don’t have any excuse ( have right) or empty words ( not quality )

The approached the fishing is not only the point of the fisherman but also from the point of view of the fish.

The basics :

~ How do fish view the world?
~ How do woman view a man ?

~ How does the fisherman appear to the fish?
~ How does a man appear to the woman ?

~ what do fish eat and when?
What do woman need ( even you got big DECOY not all woman will agree as to need that )and when?the relationship be able and available ?

These are all good things to know

“Fisherman ” were many , The Fish where plentiful BUT the right fisher were few!

The right fisherman are people of knowledge and skill
they know the terrain of the stream and where fish like to hide out and what they like to feed on

Like wise fishers know the woman live in and the things they are being attracted to…

The info here is not a TUTOR, it is some of common thought of woman ( I say ME ). There is no such thing as a magic fishing hole or a magic decoy, I don’t care what other fisherman claim. There is nothing too complicated about fishing. As long as you learn the basics, experience will teach you the rest. There are no guarantees you will catch fish every day, but the more you fish right, the better fisherman you will become.
“NO BULL HERE!”

now….

“HAPPY FISHING !”

Np. Let’s take a moment Right now GO over to mirror and look at the unique individual whom God has beautiful crafted WOW! created in God image.
Try imagine the billions of DNA that have singly been arranged in accordance with God perfect plan , Because God delighted in creating YOU just as YOU are, there is NO ONE quite like you in all the universe

So Taller, Big, Shooter , Skinny… all is God Creating , accepting as we are as thanks to him.

~ The Battle Fear The Battle to Fear itsSelf ~

When it come to growing into imagination my art, I often have a illusion that it can be done ONE night, that some how through certain imagination experience or the expression of the gifts.

The “process” of my art imaginations growth can be hurried up or short circuited

when I go this route, I end up with squashy, weak…strong, tough, I m fall down, I’m stand up again…if I’m fall down, I’m trying to stand up again.

If My ART are here DONE today and probably GONE tomorrow, but it will LIVE.

In other hand, I understand that the process of my maturity takes a great deal of time, energy, patience, faith and just plain living through the storm of life.

The Battle itself The battle to Your Ego

so this is not WAR WORLD, NOT end of world

The art about the Battle, The Battle of your self, The battle for your life.(we are fighter, fighter for our life and our stand )

Many of us like with a certain dread of the future
a fear that some day the bottom will fall out, a fear that plague will eventually get us!

Fear :

~ clouds our judgment
~ Paralyzes our actions
~ Cause us to delay rationalize over – spritualize
~ promotes paranoia
~ Induces us to think irrationally to loose objectivity
~ Destroy our trust in others
~ Diminishes our ability to believe. Risk.Act and to face it the problem
~ Maybe a reason we impute wrong motives to others
~ Is often the product of our pride
~ Refuse to believe God is there!

Every person will have to fear his own…. load of oppressive fault
one of the toughest battle you will conitinually face in life is with your self,Your EGO,selfish,lust, and Your anger…..

Anger usually focuses on our disappointment over occuresences of the past,The violation of our “RIGHT” frustration over how things have turned
out or lack of fulfillment over not having achieved our goal.
we either doubt God’s ability to manage our lives or we resent his sovereign intrusion into them,

Fear usually focuses on our anxious anticipatin of the future : Do we have what it takes to realize our hope and aspirations or will our lives crash in upon us?in the future will some uninvited calamity make it’s intrusion ?

Banyak dari manusia yg berpikir, mereka takut dengan musuh nya,
padahal… yang sesungguh nya musuh yang paling menakutkan sebenarnya adalah di dalam diri kita sendiri.So the only things we have to fear is fear itself!

Sometimes some people think they have an enemy, and not often too they think they need a bodyguard to protect them.well for some other case purpose, I can be understand that,like big company or country,ect..

But for a single simple person, what make you think you need some one to protect (unless, you know your self, you got so much problem or giving cost to people then, then you have reason to be scared as feel unscure as people/enemy will attach you or hurting you…so you need a protect from some one)

what make you think you have enemy?

and what make you worry and fear that would make you shit your pants?

Yes! We all have fear because we are human, I do too, ….and thats natural…..and I think all living beings have fear of one or another thing…..fear is a part of life….
Fear is something to deal with. The body demands an explanation of what has brought you to the thin edge of life of some of these places.

But the fear you should be to fear is fear it self and Ego – The Enemy Of Self.

Your speech ( hasut sini hasut sono, dan ujung2 nya cuma jadi penghianat )

Your path, your action and everything have cost!(Sebab dan Akibat)
Good Or Bad is depending back to what you have make it and giving cost to other , life and things.

is example :

You put salt on your meal…. ( Speaking that salt, Me and My daughter she love salt )

As we know salt is good, and we need that It is the sodium (ions) present in salt that the body requires in order to perform a variety of essential functions.

Salt can have a powerful influence on changing its environment
Salt when rightly applied to food can transform in from unappealing bladness into a delectable gourment experience.

But if you cant control as to much salt on your meal…and each day by day and each meal you put over salt, you are just invest leaving to further complications later in life.

it’s same as your ego, the cost what you done it was invest and creative a enemy.

Ask yourself …

1. Do you think and feel that outer life needs to deliver you “things” in order for you to be happy?

2. Do you struggle to take responsibility that you have created the aspects in your life that haven’t worked?

3. Do you blame people and situations outside of yourself when things go wrong?

4. Do you often feel needy and try to make things happen in order to feel better?

5. Do you have trouble accepting other people’s opinions and view points?

6. Do you struggle to be vulnerable and real around other people?

7. Do you believe your happiness is dependent on how other people see you or what you have? your things, your power, your bla bla…. (panjang ah males ngetik nya )

8. Do you find it difficult to encourage and grant other people compliments?

9. Do you employ competitive behaviour and feel envious and jealous of other people that may have or experience things you don’t? ( cemburu, masih bisa di mengerti, semua manusia pasti punya rasa cemburu, cuma kadar nya setiap orang berbeda, but envious (sirik) that’s bad, ampun bu penyakit tuh!)

10. Do you fear that people who love you can hurt you or control you?

11. Do you struggle to maintain peace, harmony and co-operation with people?

12. Do you have trouble trusting people and situations – and expect people and life to act in ways that are “wrong”? ( Biarin tar juga kemakan sendiri ama kata2 tulisan blog nya, Watch, soon or later she/he will fall down! ect…. ect…. )

13. Do you put on a front around other people so that they may like you? they should be like you and they should follow you?

14. Do you often look at life as “what can I get” rather than “what can I give?”

15. Do you think that you are on your own in life?

16. Do you feel defensive when confronted with issues?

17. Do you judge negative things that show up in your life and have trouble understanding the gift?

18. Have many of your problems been replaying the same themes?

19. Do you struggle to take responsibility with humility when you make a mistake?

20. Do you have hard time saying “I was wrong would you forgive me?”

Let’s be honest, we find sometimes to do what we really want, as just follow the ego,what to do, well keep in mind that, ultimate freedom in life is abilty to choose the right attitude,and because your attitude (kelakuan,sikap,tabiat) is centered in your will…and life, to invest a freedom of peace or to creative a enemy!

As my self, I’m not perfect either… YES! we all has experience make mistake, Fault,Dumb, even probably hurting some one, it’s were we do on purpose or not on purpose, as we are human that sometimes can make mistake, it’s still normal, some people can still understand
and some will forgiving. from 100, 50 people will understand, 25 will forgiviness and remember in this world not only live a bad people,even they are allot’s (probably include me ) but a good people and understanding people also allot.

~ THE BATTLE OF THE WRITER ~

Some people say, mostly (make it mark… mostly and Some ,not All …)
The word of the writer is more SHARP then a knife

How should I agree with this?

Yes or NO!

It’s true, but also it’s depending back to they own person /personal

Yes, as writer we have knowledge as easy to expression anything with words, from simply things, heavy one, funny to make it people laugh, happy to make people smile or make them learning, Good or Bad, Sad, even worst thing as SHARP then a Knife

~The thought of the writer can be gun
The words of the writer can be bullet

~The Thought of the writer can be teacher
The words of the writer can be guidance

~The thought of the writer can be world
The words of the writer can be picture…as you can see the world by they words

and more … more and more….

Yes a write is same like other artist, we need a freedom to our thought expression and a freedom to write.
But remember, the REAL writer we have rule, we have rule the above and agree to the terms and conditions as writer.

” That easy becomes a writer, with they knowledge abilty, they can judge people , shoot people with their words and bla bla….”

Naaaaaaaaaaa! hey, I’m witer Not nenek lampir!

The writer they also have they own battle self, like I said, it’s depending back to they own self, what people do not know…

The writer…
They battle self to they own words….
They Thought…
They speech…. ( Do I speech truthful? Straight forward? or misslanding?)

the writer also human being, they can be make mistake, so if there is words or my write and pic was not make some people feel not comfortable
I would like to say here ” Please forgive me..”

Np: A human being. I am one person for one moment and another the next. … In that sense yes, our ego is weak. But yes, we need a Ego too. …. but in the positive sense of enjoying the duty to which you dedicated yourself,for incite the desire of our dream and sucesss.

I’m not just writing things in shit on a toilet wall, If I am a sensitive little flower and, not heeding the warning, still writing the blog only to find something that offends people, I will never writing the blog again. To do otherwise would be stupid and my write that I am a masochistic and feeble nerd with no life.

I will write, and Still write…and Do my art….

~ ARE THE STORMS OF LIFE GETTING TO YOU ?

ARE THE STORM GETTING TO YOUR LIFE

ARE THE STORMS OF LIFE GETTING TO YOU ?

Several observations
~ The storms of life descend on the righteous and unrighteous a like
~ The person who builds they house on the word of God has a solid foundations :Rock
~ The person who does not built they house on the word of God has a shaky foundations :Sand
~ The storms come from every direction

ABOVE “The rains descended “
BELOW “Theflood came “
ALL SIDES “The winds blew and burst agains’t the house

Conclusion :

~Those who go to the trouble of HEARING and APPLYING the word of God will stand up under the storm
~ Those who refuse to litsen to obey God’s word will not stand up under storm life

You and I can count on storm in life whether we survive will depend upon the foundation we lay in God’s word HEARING and APPLIYING
the choice is our.

Life’s Storms like the disciples who were caught in a vicious gale are often :

~ “WITH OUT WARNING “~
~ ” FURIOUS “~
~” OVERWHELMING – THE WAVES SWEPT OVER THE BOAT “

When we suffer, when we feel like storm getting to our life,
with out warning, furious….over whelming the waves swept over the boat, we are tempted to doubt the notion that a loving God actively controls the universe and is compassionately involved in our world.
I have spoken with people who abandoned their faith in God when some tragic personal loss happened to them, Sometimes, it feels like all hell is breaking loose in our lives.

A woman who I know ,once was make screaming “I don’t understand. I love my husband, If God loves us, why did my husband have to die so slowly and so painfully by wreck? why God only take him? It’s not fair.

When people in doubt they run to center and screaming…and not often they thought as God wasn’t fair, as when they feel pain,feel like the storm destroy their life and wondering ” WHY ME?”

One of friend once asked me, “I don’t understand, I have been a good wife for him and loyal and I am good religious woman…and why my married….Does God care? Why do we sometimes lose everything we care about? …
“Why does a loving God permit suffering?”

People suffer, One day your life is happy and sunny. You have health and prosperity. Then BOOM! You are hit hard. Everything goes wrong. Sometimes a thunderbolt shoots from a clear sky and some terrible trouble befalls us and we just can’t intellectually apprehend how God has allowed it to happen.

surrounded as we feel our life furious and unexpected storms ,Sometimes make us think as ask our self, did God lead us into the boat? do I have not have the right to a storm free journey?

Where God is? thats God sleeping? is God indifferent? or God stretching my faith?

How we answer these questions will depend upon the object of our focus :

The storm which quaranteed nail biting , ulcers, panic or
God who will lead us to inner peace

“You will keep in perfect peace God whose mind is steadfast because be trusts in you!”

why does God allow furious overwhelming storms, with out warning?

I don’t know….

but I do know, God who will lead us to inner peace, be still and know that God is there!”

~ Face it ~

Since we still breathing we always find the problem and testing, kemana pun kita pergi dimana pun kita mencoba untuk bersembunyi dan berapa pun jumlah gigolo atau bodyguard yang kita punya, kita akan tetap berhadapan dengan masalah dan ujian.

Besar dan kecil nya masalah itu tergantung dari diri kita sendiri, dari dimana kita menempat kan diri dan memilih bagaimana kehidupan kita, dan dari AKIBAT dan SEBAB dari sesuatu yang kita lakukan dan perbuat!

Kalau kita memilih hidup dengan hanya di lingkungan small box dan masalah itu akan kemungkinan datang dari yang di sekitar box itu saja, dengan orang – orang dan dengan sesuatu bentuk atau benda yang ada di sekitar box itu saja!

As my self, I do not want life just in small box, I want see more…I want see sun in difference place, I want hunting a moon on difference place to see more and other poeple who far even maybe they are stranger for me.

I’m not say , I’m a person who daring risk or problem and I do not say my gut is bigger twice then size my body,but yes I’m a fighter, fighter for my life! again as human being I have a fear too and I have a weak side too,

I can feel hurt, when people hurting me
I can screaming… when the storm getting to my life too…”WHY ME!!!”
I can fall down too, if I walk in wrong way.

But we are not always , be hurt,fear, screaming or fall down…

There is always tomorrow when you get hurt,fall, a new day and a new sun bright coming after you face it the problem.
Our Problems Are Our Challenges in life so if you don’t face your problems no matter how big or small it is you must still face it (maka nya tuhan memberikan kita AKAL dan Pikiran dengan itu kita memulai nya…menggunakan untuk menyelesai kan setiap masalah dengan cara berpikir lebih dulu dan mengunakan akal bagaimana menyelesai kan nya)

If you don’t YOU WILL NEVER LEARN how to LIVE because life is full of problems From The day you were born And The Day Before you die……

~ ACCEPTING ~

Yes!,life has been an unpredictable experience. we have felt like we was climbing a mountain, and continually falling down a longer distance than we managed to climb.
there is a lot’s storm getting our life, you and me even cant acount how many…and how deep it was is, sometimes even was find often ourself as crying out as we battle as storm getting to our life’s

I am not a person who sweetly accepts my trials, by nature. Oh, not at all. Any time major life changes are flung at me, I have an instinct to duck. Life has held such radical and searingly painful changes, that I don’t want to try to catch a new one out of the blue. I fear change. So normally I withdraw, miss, and it falls at my feet, or hits me in the head.

But each toss is a test. Each toss is a challenge. Sometimes it just hits me like a ball that I cannot see in a school game. Sometimes it keeps coming back at me until I do catch it, and am forced to deal with it.

Sometimes also it’s unfair, when people have a problem as the storm getting their life, some people they don’t helping to support their mental but just judging. ( Udah jatuh ketimpa tangga lagi )

“That his/her KARMA !”
( Tuh Karma…)

Well….WHO THE HELL YOU ARE?
and WHAT GOD NAME ARE YOU? HA!

I’m not say I do not believe with Karma, but we cant just judge every problem as our karma.
God will bring you to judgment including every hidden thing whether it’s good or evil.for we will all stand before God judgment seat…

If we had no tests in life, how would we know we were achieving what we were supposed to be? How can we know anyway? It must be in the way we face and endure them. … The greatest joy of all we can imagine, will be God’s pleasure in us.

There is a reason behind any testing, whether small, or enormous. Many times we are not given this reason, nor should we think we should be. God is control of the situation, God knows the whole picture. We do not. Even if we don’t know the reason for testing until we gone, we can be certain that there is one. We can know absolutely, that God works all trial for good.

I have even thought that I might not have this trust, if I had never known a trial. Where would I have learned it, if not through going to my Saviour in brokenness?

If you are struggling with a difficult situation are the storm getting your life :

~ Realize you are not alone, other people have similiar experinces, most important remember that God with you.

~ Find a few trusted friend to share your concerns pain.

~ If you know , see and hear other people judge you ( Karma ) asking God to forgiveness them.

~ Refuse to quilty or ashamed or unworthy as you thought it’s karma. I don’t say I do not believe with karma.but
Don’t let your karma lay quilty upon you when know you served God with intergrity.

~ Keep going and Faith , wait and pray.

~ Patience and Hope.

Np : I know is not easy, even me sometimes I just run to the center and screaming “WHY ME!”
but we can try to learn to listen to Accept, we becomes obedient (which in LATIN means “ACCEPTING”)
So today, we will choose to delight in God unconditional love and once again take baby steps in learning how to let go, relax and allow your spirit free access to the depths of our being.

to instantly lift our heart up to God in surrender , May each step, each awareness, each encounter and each challange , each testing , each problem , be queitly giving over to God

Dengan berserah diri ….
Aku kembalikan semua nya kepada mu
Engkau yang memberikan….
Engkau pula yang akan mengambil nya kembali

PLAYING AROUND OUR IMAGINATION

For a While we may appear to defy gravity by juggling our secret inner imagination and thoughts with our external world of studied conformity to accept norms in fact some of us should get an Oscar for our acting abilty…

Most from some people think , I’m a dreaming woman, even some woman who I know was judge me as call me, “Suka Menghayal!”

well remember,” Jika kamu bisa memimpikan nya, kamu bisa mendapat kan nya!”

Yes, I have a dreams and it’s difficult to keep life simple if I have multiple passion and desire

When I’m busy with my art,drawing, painting or anything to do with my art imaginative, all I need just music in my head and sit relax on my chair!
and everything just about me and my art and I will swim deep in my own world, as my mind fly around just about my art and my imagination.
Everything just seem quite for me, sometimes even deadly quite around me, even my bald eyes, seem lazy to move around to see the right or left side.

Not because I do not care with people around me, or was busy thing around me, and YES! seem I just don’t care!
who was walk past from the left or right or even to some people who was stand up near my table, if I was in cafe.

Some people have a difference way , yes every one difference! and I have my own way difference, my mind, my body, my soul,even my feeling they have own way to soar and progress my imagination as take me and drag me to my own world, again where it’s just about me and my art!

Do you think that creative people are usually more imaginative?

I think it depends more on the person actually.
One of my sister is creative but she doesn’t exactly have an imagination
My dad isn’t creative but he has an enough active imagination.
I’m creative and I have an over-active imagination.
It depends on the individual.

Before I was kid I was wondering my self :

“Where was I have been?”

“Where is that place?”

and I spoke my self…

“what happen, if I cant come back again?”
“is there….there is a door? so I can come back?”

Well, I m not a daddy girl, but yes, he is like my best friend, I like to talk to him, and I prefer talk with some one who is from my own family, if something I do not understand or something was doubt me…my father not an artist painter,but he had good taste for art and understand about the art things, he loved to give comments and options, but what ever he give me comment and his options,he always knew, the actions it’s always in my own thought and it’s always my choice

YES!!! most all the time…. the choose is mine.

But for some reason , I do too a very few time thought about his options and follow.

and I’m always remember what he say….

I saw you and tell you there is light over there…
I teach you and guide you how to go walk over there
there is left way…
there is right way…
and there is straight way…
I will teach you my away in beginning how to go to the light
but, I m not can carry you…
you have to try go walk by your self with your feet and step
even you have to grope in the dark as you walk
then when you walk, you have own your thought and choice too
which one is the best? did you still stick with my step and my follow? until you go to the light? or you have your own choice as better way then mine, to go there more fast and safe to the light!

I don’t know, sometimes I feel, I’m right and satisfied but sometimes also I felt fail with my own choose, but I never feel regret and not blame any one and I do too trying hard too not blame my self.

According from him: every human being we all got blessing from god as he give us a talented, but every each people is difference talented and difference how they explore out and how they do with they own abilty,
some people good on other side,some other people good on the other difference side
how they good or bad, how those big or small they ability is also It depends on the individual and back to they own self again.

Jika kamu tahu cara menggalinya
dan jika kamu menggali nya dengan serius
kamu akan mengangkat bakat yang terpendam keluar…
semua itu sudah ada di dalam diri kita masing masing, dan kembali lagi kepada diri kita sendiri, bagaimana cara kita mengunakan nya dan menggali nya.

Yes, as My self, I thanks full to God…
I know how to explore out my talented
I know how to explore out my imagination
and I know how to drag my self and mind to feel it my imaginations
so I can sense and feel like, I was go deep to my own world imagination.

he said :

“That because you was enjoying what you do and you enjoying your drawing and you respect full your imagination, so you can feel and sense it’s almost like real that you can be buried your self in your own world art and imagination

and he remain me again, for some people who is not trust they self and to they own feeling and sense, most they just think as weird with they own imagination, even some will felt scared think as worry other people will think Crazy and for people who is never respect with they own talented or they imagination most people who is never felt satisfaction with they own gift and with what they do, never felt satisfy with they own attainment.

“What happen,If I was to deep with my mind and my imagination and buried my self there and never come back?”
and there is ….no door there…?

my father was just giving me a big smile and I can remember that, he was just like a little laugh like I was made funny with my questions.

” As your art imaginative and painting ,The one who can control your mind and your imagination, it’s you… Your self!

he say:
When we imagination something, that also we try creative something in our mind and fantasy…
and your drawing your imaginative it’s like a movie, and think like as a movie
you creative that’s imaginative and imagination as you are the sutradara…
you creative that story as you put scenario on your mind as what will be like your fantasy and those imaginative as your wish…
and sometimes, you also can be the actor for your imagination your imaginative art or drawing fantasy.

Everything on your hands and your mind
when you think is enough , you will stop
and you don’t need a door
the key in your hands
you can make bad as you want that imagination as you wish…
you can buried your self deep in there…
you can make it good or
even you can ruin bad that your imagination
it’s yours… you the one who control that!

You can buried your self as you wish as long you want
and for some people who never come back again
that because…
they living in they own fantasy, those people who is cant accept and cant make a discriminate between real life and fantasy.

Any way, after that conversation with my father was make me feel better and I never doubt and worry any more, I was keep drawing and enjoying ever momment my own world when I was drawing…writing even when do with my art pics.

What do you think our world would be like without creative people in it, your opinions and thoughts?

I wouldn’t exactly be having this write and conversation about my art without the creativity of Mr. Gates.
But we need a balance in life – some creative some not. That’s the way I see it.

Np: All Those, it’s my art, from my hard work, and DISCIPLINE and FAITH. maybe for some people think is crazy or nothing, but for me, it’s everything and I’m satisfied at least I have been try to make it happen from one of my other dream art.
and I would like to say thank you for all the website I have been joint to all my friends who has in my friends list and any where, who support me.
Thank You

FAITH FOR THE FREEDOM OF ART

Sometimes I need to ask my self ,
whether…

I M WILLING TO PAY THE PRICE OF DISCIPLINE TO ACHIEVE A FREEDOM of my thought for my art
the tool exacted upon me for the lack of discipline will, in the long run for exceed
the price I now pay for freedom through discipline
Through from the pain
Through from my faith…

Now here, I’m with my art imaginative :

Those ~ who was in my head
those ~ who was my imaginative
those ~ the picture who I was creative by my imaginations, as an artist and my talented,

by feel, by sense, by testing, by character, by emotions, and more…more
by the eyes through my head, when you cant see directly from my head
by ears with thousand and billions voice….when you cant listen.

Where the place? and where those place…it’s just a place….no dark, not bright either, not smell , not bad either, not hot not cold either, it’s just a place….

I tell you a little bit about me :

I’m NOT to religious person and as human I do not perfect either,
You can see me sometimes, I’m still like wearing my favorite short skirt,
I’m still like sometimes, even often teasing a guys with my naughty joke on my write
(Well that’s my bad habbit, sorry….)

I NEVER see heaven before, and I NEVER see hell either, and I DO NOT KNOW what is look like those place either!

But I do believe with God, and I believe with Heaven and Hell

And in my life I NEVER SEE or MEET gosh and NEVER speak with them too.

I do not say, I do not believe…
I do not say, I believe…
But , Yes propably they are some where…
I don’t know… could be on top your closet, or could be under my bed

Oh well, if one of them, under my bed, I just hope
he is a sexy Robert Redford, as smart as Henry Kissinger as noble as Ralph Nader as funny as Woody Allen and as athletic as Jimmy Conners

Then just…. “Helloooooo…. How you doing!“

(Damn Julia, silly entar beneran dateng loh, ha ha ha, nah just joking right!)

When people have fear… with something will freak them out and as they think, they see something…as gosh, actually, what they see, is something was they own creative….on they mind from they own fear.

But I do respect to dead people!
whatever they are,where ever they are, I believe they have, they own world,but not in my world.

So Those imaginative, those place
it’s some where…some where at my mind, my head and could be it was in my dream, and my imaginative as I creative those place out from my imagination…to my art imaginative.

So just be reality…
There is nothing to do with magic things
there is nothing to do with Nge pet
what ever that nge..nge…or pet..pet
(well kalau di pepet bajaj, iyah pernah , Grrr…. damn bajaj, but I like ride bajaj)

I can’t bent spoon
I can not conjure up my self with abracadabra as turn my self becomes tiger, (if I know how to do that, probably I gonna be rich woman and have sircus )

And I do not have knowledge about black magic
the only science I have is was from school, learning from school from starting I learning spell A , B , C, writing and reading and the other knowledge I have only from a life, as I’m TRYING, DISCIPLINE, FAITH and EXPERIENCE.

So This is Me, as Woman,as Single parent for my lovely kids and as an Artist who faith for FREEDOM for her ART.

The Spirit Of Tiger

If a tiger has entered your life, be prepared for changes and new adeventure!

The tiger is solitary spirit protecting its territory and coming together to mate and raise their young, In this aspect you are a person who need plenty of “space”

You can feel suffocoated easily by one who does not understand this. You are very loyal, loving and sensual, but must be with some one who really understand you.

The tiger is a nocturnal animal and gives those with the “Spirit of the tiger”
a special power during the night hours, Your creativity is enhanced during those hour. The tiger is also connected to New and Full Moon and the phases of the moon can influence you greatly. You should learn more about the power of the moon and how to use its various phases to best advantage in your life. As with most cats, the tiger is a sensual creature. it stretches , it muscles are smooth and sleep it rubs against tree other cats and is very sensitive to touch. A tiger spirit person has great feeling of touch and could learn psychometry very easily. This person also is sensitive to the touch of other and can be very sensual in physical relationships.

Unlike most of the cat family , the tiger loves swiming and will often just lay in the water and enjoy it. The tiger spirit person has an affinity for water and often lives near the water or would like to. The water element is one of psychic ability and emotional elements. You can be overly sensitive emotional, but if you call upon the power and knowledge of the tiger, you can control you life. The tiger is a free spirit and loves to roam and experience new things.

The tiger spirit is adventurous and loves to TRAVEL and experience new cultures. Learn new philosophies. Meet new people and yet can still maintain that “Solitary” image and feeling . At the same time, The tiger has very strong ties to its young. The tiger spirit has great motherly devotion and raise and teaches their children. All that they can while the children are withing their territory.

Tiger hunt silently and slowly and this can be a very beneficial trait to learn in the tiger spirit life. Weigh things carefully, don’t be in too much of a hurry, At the same time in your life when the tiger spirit speaks, slow down and becomes deliberate in your choices. If you feel you are being selfish, that is porbably for your own good. Everyone must learn to
“Do for themselves” before they can help other, You may also find your self interesed in
various pursuits that have not previously appealed to you. Follow your instincts.The tiger is a great leader

THE SPIRIT OF THE TIGER IS ;
POWER
COURAGE
DEVOTION
PASSION
ADVENTURE
SENSUALITY

http://animalspirits.ladyinblack.com/tiger_spirit.htm

Learning To wait

Your prayers seem to go unanswered?
evidence of God’s working is scarce
you and fellow – belivers languish
while the Godless appers to flourish

then sometime we ask our self when we are in doubt
“is this God’s cruel joke?
or could there be a divine reason behind our sens of abandom ment?

or

we to learning to wait and patient.

Desperately, helplessly, longingly
I Cried :

Waiting for the answer

I pled and wept for a clue to my fate

“God, I need the answers, I need to know why! is your hand shortened?
or have you not heard?

by faith I have asked and am claming your word

“My future and all to which I can relate hangs in the balance and you tell me to wait?

I’m needing a “Yes” a go head sign or even a “No” to which I can resign.
“And God you promised that if we believe we need but to ask and we shall receive,

God I have been asking and this is my cry :

I’m weary of asking and I need reply!”

Learning to wait

I Could give you sign,

I could shake the heaven and draken the sun,
I could raise the idea and cause the mountain to ruin
all you asked me I could give and pleased you would be,
you would have what you want but, you wouldn’t know me,

you wouldn’t know the depth of my love for each saint
you would not know the power that I give to the faint
You would not learn to see through the clouds of despair
You would not learn to trust just by knowing I’m there
You would not know the joy of resting in me
when darkness and silence were all you can see

You would never experience that fullness of love as the peace of my spirit descends like a dove
You would know that I live and save…(for start)
but you would not know the depth of the beat of my heart

The glow of my comfort late into the night
the faith that i give when you walj with out sight
the depth that’s beyond getting just
what you asked of an infinite God
who make what you have last

You would never know should your pain quickly flee
what it means that my grace is sufficient for thee
“Yes your dreams for your loved
one over night would come true
but Oh the loss! if I lost what
I’m doing in you!

so be silent…and in time,you will see greatest of gifts is to get to know me and through oft may my answers seem terribly late my most precious answer of all is still “Wait” when it’s the time….it will come!

~ Doing something Great for your self ~

Last night after I post my pics on one of the site online some stranger guy was pop out on my IM chat box and said :

“Great work hun!” !”

I said thank you ! even though I was still not very sure, what was he give the compliment on my pics or on my oldest write?

” You have multi talent”

hmmmmm….my nose start bigger with a little cracked smile ” Damn now I really feel my head bigger ha!“

Everyone likes to get a compliment when they do good work.
well should I be proud? not trying being stuck up but yes I proud with I do

I said thank you again…

” I can’t do so much like your talented , even though I’m talented it wont look as good as great your work!”

Most of us would like to do something great for our self something noble or great

~ Like Thomas alva edison or

~ a master peace Leonardo da Vinci

~ Famous Actors/artist or

~ Like Billy Graham

perhaps have our name in lights or smile a lot’s as heared great compliment as people doing thumb up for us as we doing great work

we err our thinking however by equating greatness with bigness or notoriety :

~ preaching to 100.000 people in a stadium or

~ Winning the nobel peace prize

Great work ! God remind us has NOTHING to do with bigness or notoriety rather “the great work (is) that you believe your self, with what you do!

the great work your self is to believe your self (that you can do )
simple faith that you can be trusted……. whatever the circumstance

~ into your talent ? believe that you can do, and trusted your self that you can do the best.

~ squeesezed in a rough business situation? are you trusting your self good for you wisdom?

want to do a great work?

then just believe your self , trust your self and appreciate everything what you do even just about a little thing or small thing you done.

The great work of your self is to believe your self.

Pic of Poem “When a Woman”

when a woman

The Power Of Words!

“Jablay”
( in other words something not nice to saying for woman)
I hear this word on my ears yesterday night as one of girl on cafe was calling me as Jablay behind my back.

“Does she think I’m a Jablay?”

And with that I was entered a night determined to do something about her judge as talk about The Power of words

Every call you kid “Stupid?” or “Lazy”? or ever call your friend or some one else “Dog, Monkey or Big Guy ?”

or ever call your GF “Stupid Bitch?” as she was in bad mood or was doing not right?
or ever call you BF ” ASSHOLE?” hhehehehhe …… ( why suddenly I get addict with word asshole on every my blog never mind !)

or ever call people with even with more worse words? or scold them with “Can’t you ever do anything right?”
GUESS WHAT?
your words becomes self – fulfilling prophecies.

When I was tennager one of my friend said to me ” I don’t trust you” and from that day on I determined to give her reason not to trust me and I becomes a juvenile delinquent Again! The Power of words!

See I’m not prefect either
even sometimes I’m still use the power of words as I was feel unscured or feel in bad mood
“Can you do something for your life reather just bothering some one life?” hehhehheh
I’m sorry and I hope they forgive me.

Instead of calling the kid “Stupid”
why don’t you grab him (or her) by the shoulders and say
“wow, you are something!
Am I ever proud of you! what a privelege it is for me to be your parents!”
then said I love you or mama/papa sayang kamu!

Then the instead of calling your gf/bf “Stupid bitch” or “asshole “
“why don’t you grab her ass as like you feel ever really loved a woman
“wow you are something!”
Hmmmm…. baby/honey…. am I ever told you !
You have a great……..great……….A

HOLD ON…. HOLD ON …now she turn around (((((((((((SLAP!!!!!))))))))))))))))

OUPS! thats not work! hehhehe wrong massage on the wrong time (blame the PMS then )
but for some other woman it will work, don’t worry keep try LMOA

so let’s start over again
Then the instead of calling your gf/bf Stupid bitch or asshole
“why don’t you grab her by holding her and give her nice hug as like you feel really loved a woman
“wow you are something!”
hmmmmmm…..
“Am I ever told you, That I love you so much!
what a lucky it is for me to be your gf/bf

And the instead of calling people as bad words as being harshness
why don’t just saying as friendly words even that just simple words as simple hello…
“hi Mrs Ismet”
“hi Mr Chris”
‘Hi Dude or babe….”

Believe me being friendly will make your inner beauty come up cause when you say something nice to people as try make friendship “Hello” ( silaturahmi)
your face show up the happiness as your lips crack up as smile as saying “hello or hi or hai”
then your inner beauty come up that also helping keeping you young! but you have to say with really mean from your heart not saying because you want to impress some else (or basa basi)

and also good cause the words as saying hello as friendly to people some one you know this is also remain them that we care with them and we love them
cause they are there Right!

back to the Power of Words in stating :
“The tongue has the power of life and death”

So do not let unwhole some talk come out of your mouth but only what is help full for building other up according to their needs!

And when the last time you used the power of words to build up your spouse
with a kind word or a note of encouragament or an employee? or a coleague? or one of your kids!